It hurt for you to come back in with no warning, the time I was so close to not feeling the anxiety and butterflies every time I thought of you. But of course none of that mattered... you said you wanted me and I said maybe we should start off friends, for my own good, so I wouldn't get hurt. But I let you take me to that carnival, and boy did I see it turning into a movie it was so great. Days pasted of being in love with you because you couldn't wait to be friends and you asked me to be yours and I said yes thinking with my heart and not my head. But you have things with the girl you dated the month we weren't together and you chose to savor her feelings over mine... so you left... even though you said you thought of me every time you were with her you still left me broken. Again. Now you want to be friends just to see if you love me again because you said that night you asked me to be yours you were thinking with your Dick. So what am I? A toy? Something used just for sex? Am I capable of love? Will you ever love me again? How long will it take for you to be ready to be mine again? You said you loved me first and of course I still loved you so I said it as much as I could. Did I scare you away? Did me talking about how I felt make you feel uncomfortable? Did your parents say something? Did your best friend say something? I'll wait for you. But if you start dating someone else while I'm waiting for you... i will be so hurt... I won't wait for you anymore just so you can play with my feelings and lead me on... you broke up with me because you had things to deal with and didn't feel comfortable doing those things while we were together so if you find somebody else... I don't know how much longer I'd wait to try and move on and be happy again.
Of course none of the other guys will be quite like you, but in someways, that might be a good thing. Of course you fit in all the good categories in the guy I've been looking for since middle school and you came into my life when I didn't believe in love. I just hope either we have that again or I don't have to wait long to feel special again
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RomanceI've always been one to keep quiet and write my thoughts. Afraid to actually tell people. Here no one knows who I am and some people can relate to the things i'm saying.
