Changes

Chapter 14

Climbing out of my rusted car I start walking.

I don't know which way to turn what paths to take or where I'm heading.

Going down the first trail I see I follow the path with no clue where I'm going.

Anya keeps flashing In my mind.

"Amber, let's cuddle" Anya suggested sitting in the crease of the couch snuggled with about 6 blankets.

"Sure" I say hugging my sweatshirt closer to my body before plopping myself next to anya.

"What are we watching?"

"Disney"

"What one?"

"Your favorite one"

"Tangled?"

I nod and wrap myself In the pile of fluff blankets.

"Why did it have to rain?"

"The sky's sad"

Anya glared at me.

"No why today I had so many plans for us"

"I will always be here so we can do them anytime"

Anya snuggled closer to me her head tucked into the nook of my neck her hand tucked next to her face resting on my side.

Anya put her feet on mine.

"Elsa"

"What?"

"Your feet are freezing remove them from my flesh please"

"But your so warm" she replyed tilting her gaze toward me her hair in messy red locks tucked under a sweatshirt 3 sizes bigger then her.

I miss anya we haven't talked in two days.

My heart feels weighed down by a ton of concrete its hard to breathe.

I lick my lips hoping to bring moisture to them.

What are you doing Amber?

You clearly like this girl.

What are we?

I'm not a lesbian. At least I don't think I am.

Could I be.

Looking beside me Anya was looking at the beatiful scenery all I could look at was her.

Her green eyes sparkled as she admired the scene.

Her straight red hair falling on her shoulders as she pointed at different things showing me like a child trying to show their parents something.

"Amber this is so breathe taking" Anya commented turning her gaze to me.

"Why are you staring at me?" She asked tucking her hair behind her ear.

"I am just admiring the beautiful view"

Anyas face turned beet red and she tryed to hide her face with her hair.

Reaching my hand over I gently lead her toward me softly kissing her slightly chapped lips.

Anya hugged me closer running her hand through my hair.

Is it weird to crave her touch?

To desperately want to see her smile.

To imagine being rich and paying billions of dollars just to look at her face.

Craving her lips.

Try in every atom of my being to not run to her house and pull her into a passionate kiss asking for a another chance.

"What am I doing?" I mutter under my breath as I grab the nearest fallen branch and hit the nearest tree.

The collision was loud, wood againts wood a loud clang echoed through the woods.

I drop the branch and continue walking  till I see my rusted car and climb in.

Sitting in the driver seat I look at rearview mirror at my reflection.

My blue eyes red and puffy from hiding back tears my brunette hair in tangled strands my makeup on the left eye smudged.

I turn on the ignition.

Pulling out of the state trails I make my way down to a familiar road.

I cruise down the street looking through the window I see anya.

She wasn't alone.

She was sitting next to girl.

The stranger had short black hair and wore a graphic tank top with short shorts.

Anya and her was smiling and laughing.

Anya looks happy.

Happier then she ever did with me.

Getting to end of the road I turn onto my street and into my driveway.

I grab my phone and walk to my neighbors house.

Knocking on the door disembodied voices could be heard on the other side.

The door slowly opened to a tall handsome guy.

"Hey" he said smiling

"Hi"

"You need anything?"

A rebound. But instead I ask.

"Is Zach home?"

"Yea let me go get him" he replyed before disappearing inside the house.

Rubbing my clammy hands on my jeans.

The door flung open revealing my best friend.

"Amber!" He shouted excitedly

"Zack"

"How are you?"

"To be honest its been crap"

Concern flashed on his face and he closed the front door and lead me to the steps.

Sitting down he sat beside me.

"What's wrong?" Zack asked rubbing his hands together

"I have been.....hanging out with this girl she and I became close.....And slowly became romanticly involved I never experienced anything like it"

"Are you a lesbian?"

"I don't know"

"Do you like this girl?"

"Yes"

"Do you love this girl?"