Stranger -A Shawn Mendes Fanfic-

Chapter 31

-Aria's POV-

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I haven't slept in days because every time I dream about that scary place. It's gotten worse knowing that he's still out there. 

I think I'm going insane. Every time I see something similar to what was in the scary place I freak out. I blank out all the time and I can't stop. I cry at night afraid that he'll come back. I don't think I can go on any longer living like this.

My mom comes into my room, "Honey Shawn's here." She said.

"I can't see him right now or anyone. Tell him to go please." I said looking up at her, my face red and puffy. She nods and leaves, she comes back in a couple minutes later and shuts the door. She sits down next to me and rubs my back.

"Mom I need to get help. I can't do this anymore." I said crying.

"Honey I don't know if I can lose you again." She said.

"I can't live like this. I'm afraid to sleep now, I have nightmares of that place every time I do sleep and I always wake up crying. I'm exhausted mom, please." I said.

"If that's what you want. If it'll make you feel better than yes." She whispered.

"There's this place in Florida, 'Mental Health Rehab'. I can go stay there and they'll help me." I said. 

"Florida? That's pretty far." 

"It's suppose to be the best." I said, she nodded.

"I'll call them." She said and hugged me and left my room. How am I gonna tell Shawn? He's gonna be upset but this is what I want. I want to be happy.

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So it turns out that I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon. My plane leaves at 2pm and then I'll be in Florida, getting better.

Shawn's coming over today so we can talk about it. I have no idea how long I'll be there for so I don't know if he'll call it. I hope not because I love him so much but maybe that'd be the best right now, I don't know.

"Hey babe." He said walking in my room hugging me. 

"Hi." I said hugging him back.

"So what's up?" He asked sitting down on my bed.

"Um so I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow afternoon." I blurted out. His face went blank.

"You're what?" He asked.

"Shawn, I've been miserable and depressed lately. I can't sleep because every time I do I wake up and cry from the same nightmare. I'm so paranoid at night that he's gonna come back for me. I just wanna get better. So I'm going to Florida for it." I said holding his hands.

"For how long?" He asked.

"I don't know, until I'm better I guess." I said. 

"We can call every night right?" 

"Um no actually, they take all electronics." I said tearing up.

"So I won't be able to talk to or see you for months?"

I nodded and started to cry.

"I'm sorry. I just couldn't live like this any longer." 

"Hey hey, it's okay. Don't cry." He said hugging me. "I'll be here waiting until you get back. I love you so much and I want you to be happy." I kissed him. We hugged for a couple minutes. A hug that could be our last.

-Thanks for reading this chapter! Sorry, it's hard for me to update now that school has started and homework is a thing now. I'll try my best though. Thanks, byeee-