spammo

ache

how do you explain the physical ache in your chest when you miss everything more than you can cope with? how do you cope with change and everything being wrong? how do you cope with not seeing the people that make you happy to be waking up each day?

i probably sound like i'm trying to be deep and/or poetic rn but in reality i'm just trying to understand why i'm so desperate to get back to school.

i hate the lack of routine: my sleep schedule is a mess, my room is a mess, my mind is a mess

i hate not seeing my friends and girlfriend: they're the people that remind me that life isn't just there to be lived, it's there to be enjoyed, and that's hard without the people that make you happy

and i hate to say this, but i hate not getting away from my family, i mean i love them but when you spend time with the same people for hours on end, every day, it can get boring, like it would be great if it wasn't compulsory. i would happily spend this time with them, if i had the option to have alone time as well, i just hate not having any control over the situation.

back to the ache. my chest, my head, my heart. it fills them all. the ache spreads like the plague and i need it to stop, i need life to go back to normal. i know it's only a week longer but it feels like an eternity. it drags on through endless time and days feel like months and weeks feel like minutes. all sense of time is lost and i don't know when it'll come back. i just need it to be normal again.

wow i never thought i'd be so dramatic about my terrible sense of time and my weird hatred for school holidays lmao

i like being dramatic

that doesn't make it any less true though

ye i guess i'm done now

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

anna :)) x