I feel numb but I know as soon as my guard goes down I'm in agony. I don't know how to act around you without wanting to be right next to you, cuddling or kissing or just hanging out together. I miss what we had. I miss you sleeping peacefully next to me each night, I miss waking up with you sometimes giggling as though we shared an unspoken secret, I miss you pulling me closer when you'd kiss me, I miss you holding me tighter when I didn't feel okay, I miss holding your hand as we'd walk around showing everyone we belonged together, I miss sharing laughs and having adventures together, I miss your blue eyes looking at me as though I was ethereal and so full of love, I miss your sweet kisses telling me you're home, I miss your hungry kisses as though you hadn't seen me in weeks, I miss the feel of your warm skin cuddling with me after a long day, I miss taking a shower with you, helping each other scrub up, I miss you telling me I love you and meaning every word each time you'd say it
