4am
Why am I doing this.
Why do I put in the effort and get nothing in return.
Waking up. Going to a place I don't want to be at. Listening to pointless conversations. Trying to ignore my eyes burn as I hold back my tears. "WHY!?" I SCREAM OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD "WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO IN MY PAST LIFE TO LIVE IN SUCH MISERY!!?"
I try to keep positive. Having faith but a greater power is pushing me down to drown in my mind. Overthinking my every word I speak.
Have you ever had the feeling of hope but at the same time knowing that everything is pointless?
