Her Secret Smile

39.

"My happiness lies on yours! "

Gazing her red nail polish on her toes Nidhi walked to the house she felt this red color suits her skin tone but didn't thought her this depressed face of hers is not really matching up to her current situation.

She is worn out of being lonely here without Varun by her side. Even though they talk every day there will always an emptiness on her heart without his touch.

And to that, she tried to talk to her parents and got a lot of humiliation and insults from her mom. Her dad forgave her and talking with her normally, but her mom was not in the state to compromise, she is still angry but at the same time secretly hears from her husband what Nidhi is doing and what her husband is doing? After all, it is her daughter who she raised with giving every love and care that she stored in her and she couldn't wholeheartedly throw away from her heart.

But unknowing this Nidhi felt so sad and cry whenever she thinks about her parents. Reminding the happy moments with her parents will eventually bring tears. The absence of both Varun and her parents is really a big thing to handle. In this Roshini was her only support but sometimes she also leaves her when Siddharth was with her.
She can understand Varun's situation, her mom's anger on her and Roshini's heart. So Nidhi didn't compel anyone to stay beside her and didn't said her perspective to anyone because she considered that as so selfish. This life was chosen by me and I have to deal with it, she had this thought whenever she shed that lonely tears. She now understands that life is not as easy as it is, and even if she tries for a thousand plus times she couldn't stop worrying about the mistakes she did. It is hurting her than anything, that's why people say loneliness was the worst demon that will make you think that you are all wrong in life.

But Nidhi didn't lose herself in the trap, she is reading a lot, started doing yoga, meditation, and fully concentrating on her studies the best side of loneliness is that you can concentrate your every attention on you and can plan what you can do to lift your life up.
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Nidhi entered the house and her mother in law was watching the serial and laughing for the comedy scene. When she noticed Nidhi she smiled and Nidhi beamed back.

"You came earlier today?"

"Yeah aunty, today he is coming right. That's why and today is the last exam," she smiled and Nidhi looking down went to the stairs and her mother in law again turned her gaze to the TV.

This Friday evening she has to be happy for her love, this evening she is going to be with Varun after a long time but her extreme emotions making her be calm and not excited at all. She went to take a shower and changed into loose-fitting clothes and meditated for ten minutes.

She then went down to have her dinner. The only thing that didn't burden her was her in-laws. Her mother in law was talking with normally like how they used to talk before marriage. And her father in law was a very nice person and she sometimes feels her dad's comfort with him.

She had the food watching the serial with her mother in law.

"What time he is coming?"

"I think 10 pm Aunty," she replied.

After that she washed the dishes and went to her room, she started to plan how to prepare for her semester exams. She started to study without thinking about anything.

As the time progressed she tossed the books away and laid flat stretching her legs and hand. She smiled to see the time as 10.00pm. She stood up and went down to wait for Varun at the doorstep.

Her mother in law also joined her and said that Varun's dad went to pick him and he was at the airport. Nidhi that moment felt so happy and eagerly looked outside.