Her Secret Smile

43.

"I think I need you but that's so hard to say!"

"Roshini you got the second mark in this semester," Nidhi said after checking the results online.

"Oh," Roshini didn't react big and looked at the playground like she lost everything in her life. He wasn't coming here at all but she is stuck in that place along with his memories.

The sixth semester has started, one side Roshini was running behind her studies and the other side she was totally devastated by everything. Her mom was working, her dad was staying in the house and now he was walking a little bit, her brother was busy with his studies. Roshini was doing more part-time jobs so that she can support her family.
And in this Siddharth, he occasionally smiles at her when they unexpectedly come face to face. Most of the time he will was nowhere to be found. Busy with his project and he totally stopped playing football in this year. Trying to reach him was like catching the wind in her hand. Her ego and his avoidance turned the situation even more badly.

This moment, in this very moment she can call him and confess that she is in love with him and without him she can't think a life ahead, but she can't as her state was like that, nowadays only she is seeing the smile back in her parents face. She doesn't want to bring any conflicts now.

Sacrifices are not new to her she always felt proud about doing that, but this sacrifice is painful, hurting and suffocating.
Siddharth, he was just near to her, only a few distance, she can feel him he is not gone anywhere. But now she can't go to him since now she strongly believing that even she confesses her love to him he won't accept it. Since everything has changed...

The more they remained calm, more the people started talking about them. Like, Siddharth dumped Roshini, Siddharth started seeing someone, Siddharth is going to settle in abroad so he has thrown away the trash (Roshini). And some people rumored that Siddharth was indeed a playboy!

She expected an explanation from him, instead, she got a shocking reply from his side that "Yeah we are broken our relationship so don't talk about this anymore." These things were informed by Nidhi. She will start cursing Siddharth for doing this to her best friend. But Roshini asked her to be calm since he did a lot of help, it is selfish to expect a person to act the way we want. If this is what his decision, then its fine, Roshini thought and totally avoided that topic. She turned her concentration more on her studies. It is difficult to be normal but she maintained to be normal in front of everyone. The only persons who understood her pain were Nidhi and her brother.
...

Days passed and it is almost the end of their sixth semester. Roshini woke up in the morning with a wish "Happy birthday" from her mom. It is her 21st birthday. But she isn't happy on that day since today is the last day for her seniors to submit their thesis, they will present their project and that's all, to actually say this is their last day. Her mom asked her to wear a saree for this birthday so she did to make her mom happy.

She took the books that Siddharth gave to her, he didn't ask but she wanted to give that to him. While traveling to the college her aunt, her uncle, and her school friends said and messaged birthday wishes on the phone. Nidhi was very excited since today they planned to celebrate her birthday at a café in the evening.

When they went to their class her classmates wished a happy birthday and Roshini just smiled and thanked them for the wish. She sat in her place and dropped the heavy bag on the table. Today all their professors went for the project presentation so they don't have many classes but for the attendance, Roshini stayed in the class.

After having their food in the afternoon Roshini came back to the class while walking she saw Siddharth standing before the staff room, she was frozen to see him. All of a sudden he also tuned, his gaze made Roshini feel awkward. She immediately turned her gaze and dashed into her class.