LUCIFER ◆ N. Mikaelson

2 // You Are Not A Monster

I am sitting on a bar stool at the Mystic Grill, waiting patiently with a glimmer of hope that Niklaus might show up, and passing the time with drinks. I stopped at five liquor stores beforehand, drinking the whole store contents of each. The stitches had been ripped and the wound was now reopened. The only way to subdue the pain was by consuming copious amounts of alcohol. The day Gab- the day my brother died, still fresh in my mind. I can't bear to say his name right now.

"Lucifer, what a pleasant surprise. Have you been here long?" Hearing the familiar sound of his british accent brought me out of my thoughts.

I giggle and smile at Niklaus, "Your voice sounds nice."

He laughs but then a frown forms on his face, "Lucifer are you drunk?"

"Mmmmaybe. Yes! I am sooooo drunk!" I take a sip from my cup, "I love you, you know? I l-o-v-e you Niklaus! Haha!" I laugh.

Niklaus shakes his head and takes my cup away. I frown and make grabby hands at it.

"Hey I was drinking that," I snap my fingers and another cup filled with scotch appears beside me. I giggle.

Niklaus scolds me like a child about using my powers in public. I stand up, not listening to him, and snap my fingers again. Suddenly, music plays from the speakers. The song is Unsteady by X Ambassadors. I turn to Niklaus and try to smile.

"Let's dance Niklaus," Tears rush down my face.

Hold, hold on, hold on to me

"Let's get you home," Niklaus gets up and walks over to me.

Cause I'm a little unsteady

A little unsteady

"Let's dance," More tears fall down my face.

I give up and fall into Niklaus' arms. I let him hold me. I need him to hold me. I'm afraid if he let's go I may crumble to the ground. Niklaus picks me up and carry's me outside. He just walks down the road.

"It's my fault," I whisper out in a shaky breath, "all my fault."

"No. It wasn't your fault, Love. You did nothing wrong." Niklaus tries to soothe me.

"I did nothing. I could have stopped it but I was scarred." I cry into his chest.

"Hey look at me," I look at his face, "sometimes we get scarred. Sometimes we want to help the people we love but don't know how. What happened that night wasn't your fault, you hear me? You are not a monster, you are not evil, and I won't let anything happen to you, understand? I love you," Niklaus stops moving and a tear slips down his cheek, landing on my face.

"I love you too," I kiss his chest.

He smiles and starts walking again. I cuddle into him and close my eyes, feeling very tired. Crying is very tiring. I think about what happened that night. The night Gabriel died. The night I got kicked out of Heaven. For the first time in forever, I don't feel like it's my fault. I smile and drift off into a deep sleep.

°°°

I roll over and groan.

"Morning Love," Niklaus says.

I open my eyes but close them immediately, the room being very bright. I groan again and rub my forehead. I feel the bed move and Niklaus gets up. I try to open my eyes a little and end up squinting as though the sun were right infront of me. Niklaus grabs a pill bottle and a glass of water, handing the glass to me. I grumble a thank you as he opens the bottle.

"How many of these should you take, Love?"

"Too many," I say and chug the water.

He chuckles and puts the pills away. I focus and try to get rid of the pain. Slowly, my headache goes away. I sigh in relief and open my eyes more. The light no longer bothers me and I smile in contentment. I look at Niklaus and notice he is only wearing underwear. I panic and look at what I am wearing. I panic even more when I see I am in my underwear and his shirt. Shít.