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we're good.

Auther's POV.

A month passed.  Ludmila and Fede moved in together, they were living in Ludmi's old house.Everything was okay.It felt like they haven't felt this way for a long time.

"Hey.." said Fede with a raspy morning voice.

"Hey babe." answered Ludmi who was already awake. She's been awake for 2 hours and she couldn't help but stare at her lovely boyfriend. Everything, everything about him was perfect. She loved his eyelashes, she loved his nose, lips and even those beautiful teeth. 

"What are we gonna do today?" Fede asked sitting up.

"Well I want to skip lessons today and just cuddle with you, here.." she answered and got closer to his body.

"That sounds great." he smiled and pulled her closer.

They were hugging each other for a while and just thinking about how good it felt to just lay in bed like this. Non of them wanted it to end. They cuddled for a long time until Fede felt that Ludmi was shaking. He cupped her face with his hands and looked into her eyes.

"Hey babygirl, what's wrong?" he said and noticed Ludmi's red eyes.

"Babe why are you crying?" he asked again this time worried.

"I just..." she  sighed. "sorry this is so cheesy, b-but...I just love you so much Fede,  I never want this feeling to come to an end. We had our ups and downs and I lost you..I don't wanna lose you anymore..." she started sobbing again.

Fede placed her head on his chest.

"Shh babygirl, it's gonna be okay, you're not going to lose me." he whispered.

"Promise?" she mumbled.

"I promise Lu." 

After that Ludmila calmed down a bit but she still had her head buried in his chest. 

"Lu?" started Fede making sure she wasn't sleeping.

"Mm?" she muttered very quiet.

"Are we good now?" he asked placing his jaw on her head.

"We are." she said this time looking up at him.

Fede sighed. "Well I'm glad to hear that.." she smiled at him pressing her lips on his. 

"Fede?" she whispered through the kiss.

"Yea?" he answered in the same way.

"I love you.."

"And I love you...Wanna watch a movie?" he suggested.

"Sure love." 

It was good.

They were good.

Everything was fine now and nothing was able to tear them apart. This time both of them are going to hold on to this ship through bad and good and never let this ship sink. 

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In the evening when Ludmi was in the shower Fede found a letter on the table in their room.

His heart sank. What if she wants to break up again and couldn't say it face to face? 

That is why she was acting weird today?

No but she loves you Fede.

Well I will not know if I don't open this now.

He took the paper from the table and stared at it for a moment. After taking a deep breathe he opened it. 

It felt like he stopped breathing from the first sentence.

To Federico, From Ludmila.

  "Sometimes you want to say, "I love you, but..."
Yet the "but" takes away the 'I love you'. In love there are no 'buts' or 'if's' or 'when'. It's just there, and always. No beginning, no end. It's the condition-less state of the heart. Not a feeling that comes and goes at the whim of the emotions. It is there in our heart, a part of our heart...eventually grafting itself into each limb and cell of our bodies. Love changes our brain, the way we move and talk. Love lives in our spirit and graces us with its presence each day, until death.

To say "I love you, but...." is to say, "I did not love you at all".

I say this to you now: I love you, with no beginning, no end. I love you as you have become an extra necessary organ in my body. I love you as only a girl could love a boy. Without fear. Without expectations. Wanting nothing in return, except that you allow me to keep you here in my heart, that I may always know your strength, your eyes, and your spirit that gave me freedom and let me fly."   

  He read the letter five times and couldn't get enough of it. Damn he loved this girl with everything he was.

But you know...

The crazy part is...

For she had eyes and chose him...

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Well, here it is, the last chappy!  

I like how it turned out though..hope you do as well

Also the last sentence is from Othello (William Shakespeare). I love this couple  much and I just feel like it's time to let them go... 

Bye. xx