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03 » Thoughts

"There's so many things I want to tell you, but for now, it's a secret."

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Flashback | Ahn Hyerin

August 22nd, 8:45 pm

The dark sky veiled the city as lights twinkled like stars. My birthday passed a couple of days ago and I got the opportunity to spend it with family, alongside my friends and my new friend, Jungkook.

At first, I thought it would be kind of weird to invite him over to my house to celebrate since I've met him not too long ago. I was reluctant to do so but Jimin convinced me. Jungkook was Jimin's friend, I wouldn't say they're best of friends, more like just close friends who just hang out with each other sometimes.

I met Jimin at school during my primary days but he never called me his own best friend until high school came.

Jungkook on the other hand, I met him through Jimin when Jimin invited me over to a small bar to drink. He knows I don't drink though but invites me anyway because I spice up the air sometimes.

And soon after that, Jungkook and I started to talk more. I do have to admit that I was struck by his beauty the moment I saw him. The moment he looked up and met my eyes when I entered the bar. His doe eyes reflecting a little bit of the light while he looked at mine, sent goosebumps down my spine but in such a beautiful way, if that even made sense.

Anyways, here I am, walking back home with Jungkook. We both finished strolling around the city and buying a couple of things from some stores that interest the both of us. Although we've hung out a couple of times before, awkwardness still filled the air we both inhaled. We both knew that we are still shy around each other and are still trying our best to get over that state. I like him, as a friend. I'd love to get closer but in all honesty, I'd love to be his. To claim him, to be able to call him mine.

Jungkook hasn't shown me his negative side yet, and when I say yet, I know that everyone has their negative side and it's normal.

It's not like I'm waiting for it to happen, I don't know if I want to witness it or get involved but overall, he's been the same polite and shy boy that I've met just a couple of weeks ago, though he did open up to me sometimes, telling me his problems, asking for any advice, and I'd give him one. Right now, we are both each other's own comfort zones and I don't mind at all.

Jungkook snaps me out of my thoughts when his voice called out my name, making me realize that I was a little further behind him. I catch up to his pace, apologizing and telling him that 'I was just thinking about things.'

"Can you share?" He asks, glancing over at me then back down to the sidewalk as we continued to walk. I bit my lip, pondering if I should or not. Would this screw our whole friendship up? Because my thoughts have been about him, only him, these past few days. He'd think that I'm a creep or something and it's basically me confessing if I ever shared my own thoughts with him.

I shake my head, letting out a small 'no' in which I stuttered trying to say. He understands, and could tell by my actions that I wasn't really comfortable in sharing. He probably thinks it's something really personal such as a family problem and shrugs it off as continued, walking on the sidewalk, slowly.

We stopped in front of a medium sized house which I call my home. I'm sometimes embarrassed to be dropped off by my friends since my parents act really weird when it comes to meeting my own friends. Not in the creepy weird but they just act too nice that it can come off as cringey and fake. At times, I find them sitting on the porch, talking together as they watch me step out of a vehicle. Then they immediately rush to open the gate for me and start asking my friends and I questions in such an overly nice tone. I mean, I don't mind it, but sometimes I wish that I could live in my own apartment, alone, like almost every other twenty-one year old. This way, I could have my own privacy that an adult like me needs.

Like Jimin, whose parents even offered to pay for his own rent, they must really want him out of their house.

And like Jungkook, although he has a roommate but still, free from his parents where he learned to be independent.

While I can't do the same, due to having such overprotective parents who watch almost my every move. But maybe one day, just one day, I'll be one of those people who live peacefully in a small yet cozy apartment that has the view of the city.

Thankfully today wasn't like any of those days, my parents were inside. They weren't creepily waiting for my return and ready to talk to my friends. I let out a sigh of relief. It's not that I don't want Jungkook to meet them when he already did. Jungkook commented that they were actually really nice which is what I usually get a lot. But I still find my parents cringey and fake when it comes to meeting my friends.

"I had fun today, we should go shopping again" Jungkook giggled a little, scratching the back of his head as his eyes meet mine. "Yeah, of course, text me anytime, oppa." That very last word slipped out of my mouth so quickly. I completely forgot about Jungkook's rule.

Do Not Call Me Oppa.

Jungkook has this weird thing with calling girls noonas. He prefers calling girls noona instead of them calling him 'oppa.' Doesn't matter if he's older than you or not, you must call him 'oppa.'

He's a year older than I am and he's somehow very serious and strict when it comes to this rule. Surely, his face showed nothing but a disgusted look. His eyebrows knitted while eyes were shooting death glares at me.

Okay, maybe this is the bad side of him.

Never have I ever seen him so serious with me before. I feel kind of embarrassed right now and he surely could tell by the reaction of my cheeks.

I gulped then played it off by giggling like I just made a funny joke. When I notice that he's still wearing the same facial expression as earlier, I stop. I bit my bottom lip before apologizing.

Jungkook's lips pursed, then he motioned me to get inside. I bow down, apologizing one more time before opening the small gate to my house and make my way in.

Once I look back, he was already walking towards his building which was two blocks away from mine. Wow, maybe he really is super serious about this whole noona and oppa thing.

I think he somehow read my thoughts earlier.

I find it a bit stupid to be all cold and earnest  about but I shrugged the negative thoughts off and focus on replaying the memories we made today.

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A/N : I don't know how to feel about my writing and this chapter tbh.