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09 » Envious

"Let's switch positions, she deserves to experience my love too."

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Flashback | Park Jimin

One week after

The sight of them holding hands, giggling and just seeing them look so happy, I can't help but want to be in his position. Hyerin transformed my life in so many ways, I love her so much. Sometimes I really think I could marry her in the future, but that's not possible if he's around. What am I thinking? She doesn't even like me anymore.

It pained me seeing them in each other's arms. They might not even know that I'm watching them like a creep from the coffee shop's windows right now and I'd rather have them not knowing because for sure they're going to invite me in and tell me the news, old news I mean.

I couldn't bare it any longer, just as I was about to walk off, I accidentally made eye contact with her, then him. I'm stupid. Now they know I've been watching their every little move.

But why does a part of me want to get mad at her, at the two of them. Why didn't they tell me? Jungkook is the reason why her feelings for me aren't as strong as they were in the past. Why did I have to find out about them like this. But maybe I don't have the right to control them and their relationship, and perhaps I'm just mad and jealous of Jungkook. Now that they're together, he can kiss her, hug her, touch her, and can do almost everything that I've been wanting to do with her. They'll be the ones going on dates and so on, being the cute couple that they truly are.

Hyerin waves at me, with the same bright smile I've adored for so long. I mimic the same, except mine was forced. Her hands wave and motions me to come inside. I tried to refuse but that cute pout she gave me was irresistible. This is gonna hit me right in the heart and punch another hole.

"Jimin, thank god we saw you here, we want to tell you something." Jungkook sounded a bit anxious but excitement was found in his voice as well. The two glance at each other then their hands met, intertwining. I look down at their hands then shifted my gaze back to their eyes.

Does Hyerin know that this hurts me?

Ahn Hyerin

I could tell by his glossy eyes that he didn't like it. I should've told him sooner but I really don't know why I chose not to. Maybe because I've been head over heels and too caught up with everything that happened with Jungkook and I? Jimin is my best friend and I tell almost everything to him. If only I was honest enough, this probably would have hurt him less.

"Woah really?! Dude, that's great. Take care of Hyerin, although she can be stubborn and a pain in the ass sometimes." Jimin forces another smile.

Jungkook on the other hand was happy and carefree. He probably doesn't even know that the two of us are a little uncomfortable.
"Trust me, I've witnessed that side of her before but I'll bare with it!" Jungkook glances over at me who smiles awkwardly at his comment.

"Hold on, let me order you some coffee, I'll be right back." Jimin was about to refuse but it was too late when Jungkook got up and walked away, leaving the two of us who just stared at each other's browns, pondering who should speak first. "Hyerin, why didn't you tell me about this before...that you liked him."

I stayed still, quiet as the air, but by the looks of his face, he wanted an answer immediately.
"I don't know."
"I wasn't even sure if my feelings were sincere at first but I just fell for him, too quick." Those words rolled off my mouth as if they weren't going to hurt the boy who sat in front of me. It wasn't any of my intention at all. It's crystal clear that those words triggered Jimin, his voice cracked when he said 'I really wish the same could happen to me.'

I pity him. I just wanted to hug him and cry, together. But it seems as though that might not happen anymore since he got up from his seat and left me, alone.

My heart aches so much, I can feel his pain. I never wanted to be the girl who would do this to him. I try my best holding back the tears that surround my eyes.

Just then, Jungkook comes back with Jimin's beverage in his hand, but a Park Jimin was no where in sight.

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A/N : My chapters are getting shorter I'm sorrrrryyy. I'll try my best to make them longer in the future. Also thank you for over 500+ reads, this is so unbelievable, I feel really blessed.