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12 » Lovesick

"Why must I see you again? It just makes me want to love you again."

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Ahn Hyerin

Saturday, 9:47 am

All night long, you ran around my mind continuously, not even stopping for a break.
I thought I could forget about you, but you know how weak I am, I can't do that.

It's crazy how he still has this effect on me even though he's not doing anything.

Our beautiful, yet tragic memories we made will be forever kept in my heart. I will never let them go as easy as I did with him.

I regret it, I really do. But a part of me wants him...back.

He's in love with another woman, not you Hyerin. He doesn't love you anymore.

If they ever do break up, do you really think you can get him back when you were the one who broke things off?

No.

Never.

Stop dreaming, stop wanting, stop craving for something you can't ever have.

I had him, though.

Till I let him slip out of my fingers.

The biggest mistake ever-

Me.

A buzz woke me up from my thoughts. My eyes kind right down at the device on my lap. The screen lights up and a trail of text messages from Jimin bombards my screen.

Was I too deep into my thoughts to even notice all of this?

Jiminie:
It's still early for coffee right?
Join me?

Hyerinie:
Okay.

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10:13 am

"Is something wrong Hyerin?" Jimin asks. He probably noticed my dull face as soon as I entered the cafe. I tried to hide the fact that I cried my self to sleep last night so now I have puffy eyes and dark circles out for display, using makeup but I guess that didn't work.

Nothing ever works for me.

Shaking my head as I sip the cup of warm coffee in my right hand, lies.

"Looks like you cried, look how puffy your eyes are." Darn it!

I place the cup down then heaved a deep sigh, do we have time for a long story?

"Oh" Jimin had a sympathetic expression on his face. He tried to comfort me when he saw me on the verge of crying again, but thankfully I stopped myself before making a scene.

"You still love him, huh?"

I nod.

"It's like the expression 'You don't know what you have until it's gone.' Pretty cheesy right? But it's so true. I miss him."

"And it hurts that he's with another girl, but it is my fault, I let him go."

"How did he move on so fast?"

I rambled on. Jimin must be so exhausted from being my go-to-rant-buddy, but I'm thankful he's always there to listen to me.

"Hyerin, I know it hurts, but none of us can do anything about it. Perhaps you should just accept it...if you really love him, you should want the best for him, and perhaps this is the best for him, he's happy now." Jimin is right.

"If you need a distraction, I'm always here to take you out to pretty places and listen to your stories, etcetera." He adds.

Dang, when did I get so lucky finding a friend like Park Jimin?

"But-" Jimin paused,
"I hate to break it to you but I have to go pick up a delivery for my mom."

"Yeah, of course. I'll just stay in here for a bit, probably buy myself another cup of coffee."

"Do you want me to give you some extra cash becau-" I wave my hands around, stopping him from pulling out money. "Jimin, it's fine. I have my wallet with me, but thanks for the coffee, now go!" I reassured him by smiling a little.

It seemed like he bought it and left.

If Jungkook can move on that fast, so can I, right?

Maybe I need to start going out more and start seeing people.

I'll think about that later, but right now, my body needs another dose of caffeine.

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A / N: I ended the flashback !!
Yay, get ready for the next chapters, it's lowkey going to be so cliché but I'm gonna
try my best to make it seem more original.