(Warning; some language, mentions of drugs, some suicidal thoughts, a little NSFW for our older boysstrong emotions head your way b)
👓🌵🔋Richie🔋🌵👓
• it's not funny anymore, and it never really was. Losing you. This isn't a joke to him. The only thing that kept this boy from killing his self in his fucked up life was you. You made him so so so fucking happy and now why should he even go on. He was too blind, trying to impress you with jokes that you didn't want to hear, jokes that hurt your feelings. When that's the last thing he wanted to do, he cares about your feeling, he cares about you...his babygirl. He saw you around school the next day after your break up. No one will ever understand how hard jay was for him not to go up to you and kiss you. Something he's wanted to do for the longest 24 hours of his life. But, you don't belong to him anymore, and he's completely at fault for that.
🕊🌾✉️ Stan✉️🌾🕊
• he hated his religion now more than ever, he wanted to be the prefect Jewish son so that his dad would be proud of him. But ended up losing the only thing he really cared around his perfect princess. It'd be a miracle to se Stan without red eyes from tears, all of them for you. He'd give you all the time in the world just for a couple of seconds to hear you voice. Goddamnit he's in love with you, he's never known the feeling until you came. You are his everything thing! His oxygen, his light, his reason to live. You are his first kiss, first love, his first heartbreak that he caused himself. You wanted to to was spend time with him and now more than ever he wasn't to do that with you. He saw you over at the quarry once, swimming alone. Normally you'd do that together and it took all of him not to yell out to you that he wants to back. Because, he frankly doesn't believe he should have such a prize like you back.
☁️🗺🛥Bill🛥🗺☁️
• Why did he kiss her? When the only kiss that made him feel alive was yours? He brought out old feelings that he'd buried a while ago. She was his past something that he could forget and let go. You were his now, and his future something that he'd look forward too and love forever. He wanted and still wants to be your forever. Nothing not even an old crush changed the way he felt about you. Everyday feel likes he lost another person he didn't properly take care of. No wonder he lost Georgie because he lost you too. He doesn't feel that he's good with precious things, all the money in the world couldn't buy something as rare and amazing as you. He wants to be your side again, holding your hand in his kissing your cheek. But, he can't because he messed up and did something he promised he'd never do! He was walking along the side walk and spotted you with some of your other friends. Tears spilled from his eyes as he turned the other way, he was a cheater and doesn't feel like you deserve that in your life.
🧡🦊🍁Mike🍁🦊🧡
• that decision was the worst thing that he'd ever done. So what if you didn't go to school with him, you were always loyal to him and never gave him a reason to be suspicious. What would give him that thought that he needed to break up with you. You guys made it work, it didn't matter about you going to school or him working you both managed to make plenty of time for each other. He's gotten much more quiet without you around. He hasn't heard your adorable laugh in some time. A laugh that was literally music to his ears, that he wouldn't mind listening to all day. Days go by so slow without you, nothing to keep him smiling throughout the day, with you gone. One day he had to deliver some meats to your family, he decided to go when you didn't have school to avoid seeing you and crying on the spot. But when you opened the door, he freaked out. He wished to see you badly but, didn't have the strength to talk to you. He just shoved the meats into your hands and rode off.
🚬🥀🍓Beverly 🍓🥀🚬
• what's wrong with this fucking town? Why does it have to ruin everything good and turn it into shit? She swore that one day she'd take you out of this town and that you guys could be together for ever. But she doesn't even know if that can happen now, you aren't with her anymore. It's like she's going through withdraw. She was so high on you, taking large doses of you everyday and never seemed to OD. Giving up all over her time and devoting it all to you. Now that she hasn't had you in a while she's going through a withdraw of love. The pain, that she feels is so unbearable, to the point where she screams and screams out in anger of not having you around. It's like everything reminds her of the rush she once felt being with you. Like she was on the top of the world in your arms. Hearing three magic words from you felt like accomplishing life. She went to He pharmacy to go pick up more cigarettes. Being without you, she had no one telling her not to. But then she saw you picking up some things. You still as beautiful as ever. Once you connected your gaze with hers she dashed out. Knowing that you didn't want to see here, well that's what she thought.
🌸🏩🕯Eddie🕯🏩🌸
• what was wrong with him? He just sat there. He just sat there and watched the love of his life bleed and cry for him. And he just sat there. God, he felt so worthless. Why the fuck did you even waist your time on him anyways. He felt that you deserved a man, who could be strong for you. He felt like a punny little shrimp. You were his night and day, his love and lust, his comfort and flames. You mean way too much to him for him to let you get hurt. And don't think seeing you get hurt didn't break his heart. He wanted more than anything to help you but he couldn't because he was too scared and couldn't fight. He'd put his heart and sole into helping you get better, but wasn't Enough for the real damage that was done to you, him letting you get hurt. He seen you out in a field playing with you friends. His tears clouded his vision of your perfect smiles, and you'd never looked more beautiful than now when he wanted you so badly. He walked away, and damn does it hurt.
📽🎞📜Ben📜🎞📽
• he never knew he needed you so much until now. Beverly never wanted him, never loved him, never chose him. Everything that you actually did. He knows now that you never truly know what you have until it's gone. Ben hasn't seen you in a month avoiding eye contact with anyone, that could be you. He would do anything do have you with him again, hugging him, kissing him telling him that you love him. Everyday it's like he's dying without having you around. He wants you to come back to him, he really really does. But, he didn't date a weak girl which is one of the reasons why he's in love with you. He ruined the one thing he'd wished for all his life: a beautiful girl who'd finally chose him to love. And he had that, you were that and more but he went and messed it up. The first time he decided to look up in the halls he saw you, your gorgeousness overwhelming him. He ran to the nearest bathroom and broke down. What had he done?
🔪💣💉Henry💉💣🔪
• he felt like such a screw up, a fuck up. He'd tell himself that he was a pussy, that only a pussy would put his hands on a girl. A girl that he'd fallen deep for. A girl that he someday wanted to marry. A girl that he was trying to give the world to. He'd fucked up up because we was angry and bitter like his basterd of a father. You are everything to him, with out you he's nothing. With no you there is no him, he's just some fuck up. How dare he even, think to hurt you in such ways? Why would he put you in pain he one thing he'd die for? He feels that you're well into another relationship you now, some other guy treating you well, touching you better, making you feel better. How he longed to see your gorgeous body again, hearing your beautiful moans as he pleased you. He saw you riding your pike once, outside his window he smiled seeing how beautiful you looked. When he saw the fading black eyes he's giving you he frowned. Then he realized that you weren't who you used to be to him. You were his everything and you still are but. You don't belong to him anymore.
🛒⏱🗑Victor🗑⏱🛒
• why didn't he care, why didn't he care that you were trying to save this relationship? Why was he so blind to see that he had the world and more? He's never felt such regret and shame in his life. He'd do absolutely anything for you and pushed you away. What was wrong with him. He trashed his room out of anger, anger that you're gone, anger that he didn't care, anger towards himself. Everything was crumbling for him, his life was boring. You made it special, you were his reason to get up out of bed in the morning, he only walked outside to see you everyday. To here you tell him things that he'd only dreamt of hearing. And now you've voice is just a distant memory he hasn't heard it In 4 months he's forgetting his favorite angelic sound. In the midst of his trashed room he saw a photo. A photo of you on his lap kissing him that belch took as a joke. He geared up at the sight of it. That, that's what he wants to have again, why can't he have it. He wants it so so bad.
🔥🚨🔌Patrick🔌🚨🔥
• he knows how to love you know, he knows how to give you what you deserve. You gave him strength to break down his walls he has put up and give himself fully to you. But, it's too late. You're gone, you left and he knows you're too strong to turn back. And why would you...he took to long to start caring to start trying. He was supposed to change for you, and he did, but not when it counted. Everyday he sees you, you have to pass his house on the way to school. He looks out his window, seeing how stunning you look each day, how much he'd give walk with you hand and hand to school again. Every time he sees you, he figures out another things that he never knew he loved about you. He loves you so much it scares him. What also scares him is that, he may never get a chance with you again.
