My heart has always belonged to you: A Monday Couple fanfic

Chapter 15: Is she going to leave me?

Kang Gary's POV

I want to know. I want to ask. I want to move.

But I can't.

My heart is in pain. My heart is sad. My heart seems to break.

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I stared at my phone with the caller ID that said "My love, Ji hyo". I was an inch away from pushing the dial button but I just stayed still.

Frustrated, I threw my phone beside me and it lightly hit the foam of my bed.

I angrily rested my back on the bed and placed my right arm across my eyes and sighed deeply.

It has been weeks since I got back from Singapore but I haven't had a proper conversation with Ji hyo yet. I was able to talk to her on the phone for a while but she was so busy because of her drama taping and everyone was watching her so I couldn't go anywhere near her as of the moment.

I needed to be patient and let the crowd die down before we could meet each other. We didn't have any RM shootings for about two weeks so I wasn't able to see her that much.

Truthfully, I haven't heard any explanation from Ji hyo yet. The last time we talked she only said, "Gary oppa, please let me explain. Please don't jump to any conclusion yet. Please understand."

The way she said those words were so sad that I literally wanted to hug her over the phone. She was pleading so badly of course making me assure her that I would wait for her explanation.

But.. but.. this waiting is just killing me inside. My insides are burning up, I want to relax but I just can't.

I got up from my bed and went to my laptop. I went on my twitter account and read on the posts the fans sent me. Most of them were devastated to hear the news about Ji hyo and Chang Ju. They sent me comforting messages but honestly it didn't help me at all.

'Aishh, I need some fresh air. I need to get away from everything first or else I'll go insane.' I talked to myself as I pushed the monitor of my laptop close.

I knew there was only one place that could calm me down. I went down to my car and I drove as fast as I could.

When I was off the main road, I increased the accelerator. I was eager to arrive to that place as fast as possible.

It was almost sunset, the view would be lovely once I reach there.

I arrived at where we call it, the Monday Couple view with Ji hyo.

I got off the car and slowly went towards the cliff.

The sky is orange and the clouds are beautiful. The air is fresh and wind is soft.

I stretched my arms widely as I breathed out heavily.

It felt good. Everything about this place is so relaxing.

I smiled and sat on the grass, bending my knees towards my body as I wrapped my arms around them.

I stared at the sun that was going down.

"Wow! It's good that I came just in time too see this. It's so beautiful." I spoke to myself.

"How I wish Ji hyo was here to see this." My heart instantly sank just thinking about her.

I shook my head sideways trying to erase my thoughts about her. I came here to feel better and not to feel sad. I reminded myself.

I thought of other things instead.

My new solo album has been released. I have been preparing that album for almost half a year last year.

There were many negative reviews about it but I didn't let it affect me so much. The songs were more painful, dark, and mysterious. But even so, I was satisfied with it. I worked hard on it putting all my past memories in it.