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Chapter 24

Gerard soon got back to Bert's house, although he didn't really want to go back there. It was better than being with Frank, he didn't think he could stand to look at the man's face again. Even though he found himself lost in his thoughts about him multiple times.
He couldn't stop thinking about how he would kiss him, his voice, his eyes... everything about him to Gerard was intoxicating. But at a time like this, he wanted to be mad at him. He wanted to be angry. But he was rather sad than any of those things. He just wished he could of never went back there, and maybe he would feel a little bit better. But he knew that either way he would still feel terrible inside.
Did Frank do that because he truly didn't love him? He didn't have to analyze it too much to know that when someone cheated it most likely meant they were done. And for some reason he didn't want that to be the case, even though Frank was the reason for most of his pain.

"Bert" He said, the familiar frown on his lips as he continued to worry.

Bert just sighed, looking at the other with an expression of pity and a little bit of worry. "Yes?" He asked him, knowing that he was still upset from what happened.

"Do you think he'll ever love me?" He asked in a quiet voice, although he didn't think anyone would have the answer to that. Frank was complicated, twisted almost.
He had a way of luring people in and making them believe that he actually cared, and for what? It was all for nothing. He should've known from the start. He felt so stupid for not trusting his instincts.

"I don't think Frank will ever love anyone" Bert said truthfully, looking at Gerard as he saw tears bubble in his eyes. He didn't want to upset him more, but he felt that was the truth.
"He tries to act all tough by doing things his way and getting whatever the fuck he wants, but deep down inside I think he's lonely. He needs someone, we all do. I just don't think now is the time" Bert said carefully, his heart dropping when Gerard started to cry.
"Gerard I'm really sorry. For everything. I'm sorry for what I did to you, and for the way Frank treats you. You don't deserve any of this shit" He said, pulling him into a gentle hug.

Gerard was confused and sad, he felt like he didn't have control over anything.
He felt tears start to roll down his cheeks and he let out a small sob, quickly hiding his face in the others chest so he couldn't see him cry.
'What am I doing?' He thought to himself, his thoughts and worries coming back once again.

"It's going to be okay, I promise" Bert whispered, trying to find any way to comfort and make Gerard feel better. It just broke his heart to see him so upset, because he knew how Frank could be sometimes.
He rubbed his back gently and he continued to whisper to him, holding him close to his chest.
"Shh it's okay" He reassured him "Its okay"

Gerard tried desperately to hold in his sobs but he failed quite a bit, more tears flowing down his face.

"All I ever wanted was for him to love me"

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This was a bit of a short chapter, I intend to make the next chapters much longer though. I'm just very tired ahh
I'm trying to update more often but I started school and everything seems so hectic all of a sudden. Hopefully another chapter is up by tomorrow or tomorrow night. Ps: I didn't proof read this so there's probably some mistakes, I apologize!
Anyway,
Feedback is much appreciated and if you have any suggestions for chapters, just comment!💗💗💗💗

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