I'm Coming Home

chapter: Seventeen ; To Build a Home

Chapter: 17 

Ariana's P.O.V: 

My feet moved me foward to face the reflecting image, watching the white embrordered fabric of the dress. And as the people around me gawked and cheered as they told me how beautiful I was, I let my mind wonder to the times before. How I had felt so lost, only a year ago. To have felt like all hope was gone, that the world was a place of spite and love was only there to help the fall only to end up hurting you more. I remember how I was so fearful yet when they appeared out of the blue all my pain was lifted letting me see the sun in the world. How the sun shined between the gray bark making there figures seem as if it were silhouette painting. The clear water running ontop of the black rocks softly moving under us the sound making the world wash away. How the people we meet are meant to affect us in one way or another. Weather it's show us that we are not as fragile as we believe or to let us know there is no such thing as to strong. And it's strange to think that only one being could have such an affect. Could make think the worst and then make you think nothing at all. How they can make you feel so numb you start to believe your nothing but the with the wind, there but invisible. How they can make you laugh for times on end and make you cry from all the sweet words to make you feel as if your that beautiful red rose blooming into who you're meant to be. 

I want to say I am who I am because of me. But that's not true. I am me because I fell in love only to get my heartbroken. I am me because I let myself trust an indiviual and feared not what may have come but loved what the path choose to show me.

I learned many things through out this life. Such as people will hurt you and they will judge you. And secrets may tear your family apart but they may be the simple glue that's holding them together. We are not here to be treated fairly but to learn one of the greatest lessons of time:

 "We are not to hate the society which we live under because to hate yourself is one of the worlds greatest mistakes"  took time to learn it and to yet understand the rest of it becaue life can not be summed up with a simple sentence such as that. Life is a story book that we will learn to read with time. 

"Ariana?" I turned to the voice watching his swift movements toward me. "you look beautiful" I shlyly smiled at my cousin letting him know I was grateful. "C'mon let's get this ho-down on the road" He smiled inhaling deeply. I shook my head letting his arm intertwine with mine as he led me out the room and to the brown wooden door ahead. I felt the anxiety inside of me overwhelm. "Everything will be okay" he whispered down at me as the doors opened reveling the sweet church. The stain glass windows made sofft purple colors fall on to the crowd. making the white flowers swtich shades. 

We slowly walked down the aisle, my feet stepping on the white rose petals. I stared into his green eyes as we moved closer the tension lifting. As his contagious smile swept on to my own lips. I stared at his presence the brown curls I had run my finger through many times were swept back. Without even realizing it we had stopped, I led myself to stand across from him our hands being placed inside each other. 

"we are here to today for the matramony of Ariana Carr and Harry Styles" The preist annouced to the crowd of people behind us but the words sounded hazy as he spoke to focused on the man in front of me watching the way he fidgeted obviously nervous he eyes staring into mine only looking away for a few seconds. But I was stone frozen just wondering what the thoughts going through his mind were. Probably counting the seconds till this was over, or possibly not thinking at all. 

"The couple have requested to speak their own vows" He pointed to Harry, his hands removing from mine to grab the golden ring. "I may not have been your first love. But to be your last is all I could ask for. So I Harry Styles promise to love you through thick and thin. To hold you as you shed your tears and to laugh with you as we grow old. I promise to give you everything. I promise to love you through sickness and in health, through harships and brightness. I promise to love you forever and always." He slipped the ring pushing it down to the base of my ring finger. I then turned to grab the second ring holding it the tip of his own finger slowly moving my eyes to stare into his. 

"You gave me the strength to allow myself a second chance. As the world darkened all I ever had to do was stare into your eyes and all serenity washed over me. So I Ariana Carr promise to love you through sickness and health. To be your wall as you slolwy fall apart and to be your lover as you smile away the pain. I promise to be your partner whether it be to make a descion that will mark us forever or a desicion that will mark our bathroom walls fate. I promise to be there through every step and watch our childeren grow into the people we created. I promise to love you forever and always". I let the ring fall to the base of his finger our eyes meeting once again the voice of the preist breaking in "I know pronouce you husband and wife". 

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The music pumped through the tent as people danced on the rented dance floor. "So Mrs. Styles, what do you say me get the hell out of here?" his mouth next to my ear. I bite down on my bottom lip nodding my head at him. We walked away from the crowd into the hotel, leading ourselves to our own seperate rooms where our bags sat. I changed from the white dress leaving it on the bed as the wedding planner said to do, grabbing my change of cloths I heard the music dull down from the outside. Knowing that they were now surronding to say their goodbyes. 

I heard the knock on the door as I slipped the small pieces of hair behind my ear. I turned to see his head of curls unleashed from the gel. "Ready?" his voice soft as I walked toward him grabbing my purse "ready as I'll ever be"  I whispered, nervous of the times to come. It didn't feel any different then the night before. We were still together and we still looked the same only now he was my husband not my boyfriend. But it was this strange feeling in my stomach and I didn't know what it mean't but as his hand swam into mine and his shoulder bumped into me. I knew that everything was going to be okay.

We walked down the two way stairs. stopping in the middle. The sea of heads staring at us with amazement, through out all odds we had made it with everything against us we were stronger we had created our own sheild. As I watched them I saw the anxious stares starting to bloom on their expressons as I turned around to be facing away from them throwing the bouquet of white and orange poppies. I heard the shouts of girls as one of them was lucky enough to have caught it. But we wasted no time to see who it was as we sprinted away from the crowd the petals of flowers being thrown at us. The car door closed the only sound was our laughter but as we stared out the window it was people we'd seen before and some we hadn't smiling and clapping as the car drove away from the hotel quickly disappearing. 

I rested my head on his shoulder just listening the pumping of his heart as his long arm draped over me. He softly spoke but the words didn't process in my brain just his voice was heard and it sounded like a sweet lullaby. But as my eyes started to close it was the only thing I heard and it was enough to last me: 

"And in that moment I knew we were  infinite"