I'm Coming Home

chapter: Ten ; For the Love of a Daughter

CHAPTER: 11

ARIANA P.O.V: 

The room sat blank white walls, white materess. It seemed light, the gray sky peering in through the open window the wind pushing the sheer curtain further into the room. But light or not the room held this hidden darkness, a different apartment yet that same ligering feeling of useless dwelling inside of me. 

I heard the door creak open stopping full way a shadowed figure standing there his icy blue eyes coming into view. "why's it so dark in here" the flicking of the switch on the wall brighting the room. I crossed my legs as if on command leaving a spot for Louis to sit. My watch falling to my laps as he made his way over:

"You okay?" I shook my head to his question. Not seeing the point in telling them something that wasn't true. Why please them when no one is ever gonna consider me a factor of this life? I thought to myself. 

"Wanna talk about it?" chuckling through watered eyes sounding bitter "talk about what?" My gray eyes meeting his chilled ones. "C'mon don't be like that" jaw clenching as his hands grasped mine in a comforting manuevor. "Please don't" I whispered Lou's hands disappearing to his sides 

"I don't know how to be happy anymore" mumbled words tumbling from my parted lips fresh tears falling. Blue eyes looking at me; "I don't even know if I want to try to be happy anymore" statement said sounding more like gasps for air. A lump of anxiety forming in my throat. "Why try?" I asked my gaze finally meeting his "why fight?" 

"There is nothing left for me. There is no hope left inside of me." shaking my head as more tears cascaded down my cheeks. Hands trembling in between my thighs. "It's me against the world" I sobbed head falling into his chest as long fingers caressed my back sending soothing chills "don't say that" He cooed into my ear. His body swaying me back and forth like a small child being comforted by her father. "You are such an amazing person" he brought my chin up facing him "I wish you could see that" his lips meeting my forehead his arms wrapped over mine pulling my cheek to his pec, tears soaking into his black t-shirt.

"Louis" a voice yelled from down the stairs. His head moving in the direction reconginzing the voice of Elenour. "You gonna be okay?" I nodded my head removing myself from his embrace. He strutted to the door about to walk out:

"Hey Lou?" a new wave of anxiety forming in my throat "yeah" he turned around his body already half way out "Thanks" 

I let the door close behind me as he walked away down the steel steps. A new surge of tears pouring from my eyes. Once I was sure to be alone, I let the cool medal of the door knob chill my palm as I pushed the button locking me from the outside world. Pushing a chair underneath as well for extra support. Taking my sweats off of my legs the heat immense. Pushing the sweatshirt above my head leaving me in my tanktop and underwear. The cool breeze from the open window creating goose bumps on my bare skin. My head popping out looking down seeing the head of Harry and Louis talking to Elenour, smile etched on to their faces. My hand flying to the switch the room becoming dark once again. Head now inside my view still of his brilliant chocolate curls. His Gaze brought up to see the darkened room, falling back to louis a laugh escaping his mouth.

Feet stepping back from the clear glassed window peering around the room. The White door connceting itself to the bathroom. 

The clear glass cup becoming heavy as the tap water filled mid way. The water soothing it's way down calming my shaking body. Pulling the mirror open seeing the multiple products they had purchesed for me. Eye's flickering to the white bottle. Lips parting slightly the tempting feeling taking over my body my hand gripped the tyelnol bottle bringing it back into the bedroom with me. The glass of water grasped in my other hand. 

My behind connecting with the soft materess as I thought about what I was allowing myself to do. The white lid popped off with a slight push, throwing it the floor. I poured a few pills on to my sweat glistened palm, shaking them around. Eye's moving foward to the grab the water with my empty when my gaze caught on to something different. The knock on the door knob startled me but I didn't move from the spot my watch still on the framed picture on the bed stand. Our lips connected hands both moving to the camara button. The memory of that day bringing a soft smile to my lips. The rattling on the door knob still there "Ariana?" I heard the husky voice, panic flowing through. "OPEN THIS DOOR!" He pleaded, my body still numb. The door shook with anger as he slammed himself in the lock breaking. Door swinign open pushing the chair aside. His breathing heavy as he scanned the room. I felt the pills release from my hand spilling to the floor. Green eyes falling on to me. slolwy dropping to the ground seeing the red pills scattered. Curls shaking "how many did you take?" voice cracking. "none" I answered "don't lie to me" he demanded. Standing from my spot swiftly moving towards him "I'm not" hands moving to his hips "I thought I wanted to die, but then...." I paused "but then- I realized I wasn't ready to say goodbye" bringing his warmth towards me his long body hovering over, waiting for the feeling of his hands enveloping me "don't you dare scare me like that again" He whispered into my hair "I won't" I cried:

"what stopped you?" He asked slowly as we layed in my bed later that night not even bothering to put on my clothes from earlier remaining in my undergarments and tanktop. "You did" I answered honestly eyes flickering to the photo I had been staring at his face following my gaze coming to an understanding "like I said I wasn't ready to say goodbye" my lips connecting to his the kiss soft not pushing not as hungry as the times before. It was filled with relief, with pure lust and needing of each other. It was perfect, "you saved me" I whispered against him my teething biting into my bottom lip his green eyes barely seen "I love you" his words soft grazing my lip with his thumb "I love you too Harry"