The Locked Note

Never

Why I cried in showers a lot?
Why I got quitter each day pass?

Why my music became louder?
Why I looked like a dying blue petal?

A big piece of me,
Got lost.
And I feel lifeless without it.

A living part away from me,
So far to have again.

Blue was our happy color,
But we turned it to a sad one our last winter days.

She told me,
If I missed her one day,

I only have to hide under my blanket and stop crying,

Kick her out of my imagination,
Remember that she's bad as I said,
And that she doesn't deserve my reminding.

But then,
Perhaps every corner inside my mind screams our memories, how can I do this?

We weren't written for each other?
Maybe the pen runout of it's ink.

She got her special one,
And I can't move on.

I know,
It takes time,

Time heals almost everything,
Right?

Till now, She's still.
Still the one inside that heart of mine.

There's a lot,
A lot of kind and beautiful souls trying,

Trying to reach her level to enter my heart,

But it'll always remain high for them to reach?

No one can understand why she meant that much to me,
Only the two of us know.

They saw that we loved each other appeared on our eyes,
But they never saw how much.

Maybe now they can,
When she is gone.

When I can't reach her anymore.

When I don't see her anymore.

When I won't hear her giggles anymore.

And that time is all what I ask for now,
A miracle only can bring her back to my arms again.

Why there's always "but"s following our fate?

The world is so cruel to give me a little wish,

So cruel to make me smile a real one again,

So cruel to make my heart melt again,

So cruel to bless my life over again.

I didn't ask for all of this,
Will this end well?

While I am here,
So weak to move on?
So blind to accept others love?

I'll live with the thought of her coming back?

The thought of us being together?

The thought of her hand on mine again?