Since Forever

Chapter 4

School is the biggest killer.
College classes are hard at whatever level.
Now you would believe I might be in college. You will never know~

Welp. Enjoy our main character have a bad day!

The door opens again in a swift slide as I skip all the usual banter. I was a few seconds later than usual and it was obvious it was noticed. The guards stare me down with every step making them restart and start the process of scanning again only to find nothing new. The usual Emerald with no imperfections and collar put around her neck like any other human. Does that collar do its purpose, we will never know. Well, no human will never know.

Surprisingly, 'Daren' was already there locking his locker and still not over that hangover. He looked back at me in surprise probably expecting my usual entrance seconds before then it's usual and even though he and Emilio are as unpredictable as life, they know I am not.

I quicken my pace which didn't escape anyone's attention and open my locker quickly. I don't know why I feel like my blood pressure raced higher than on normal days and how my fingers seemed to fumble with everything I do. Opening the locker was it's different adventure and putting my things away was its escapade. While I fumble with everything called patience, 'Daren' looked at me with the biggest question in the world.

"You okay?" I surprise myself when I glare at him. What the heck Emerald, what has you on edge? I know you woke up late which was planned, but what is with this attitude? Like something was too wrong with today.

I send an apologetic sign to 'Daren' which he accepts with a nod while I look over my impeccable memory.

What do I have to do today?

Well, other than stalking the new guys.

"Emerald. The principal wants to see you." Ohhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. That's what is happening. The principal. Today is that day. Is that good or bad I wonder?

Emilio arrived with his boisterous self-planning the craziest of things only to cut short his conversation that had started a few hundred feet away as he noticed the guard glaring me down.

Today was my birthday.

Now I know all of you must be absolutely confused, my birthday was in a month or two. That actually is my legal birthday. The birthday that beast follows, the rein of the body and a few other statistics written on every paper that exists in the world. I had used more than a hundred different birthdays in my lifetime, but my biological birthday, the day of my birth, was today. Surprisingly I could never look back at my childhood memories and say, yeah that's my day of birth. Mom is extra special today. Of course, I can't. Time didn't even exist back then, no, it was always a feeling.

An anxious feeling. A feeling of danger at every corner like all gods had given up on my existence and that karma will come and crash down on you like you were nothing. That feeling that normal humans get for dangerous situations that I would probably never look the same at. Like everything can jump at you and destroy you in a few seconds, but never did. Nothing ever happened. A feeling there, a feeling here, but nothing threatening ever happened. No, the day is always accompanied by a blessing. A circumstance that everyone thought was normal but destiny thinks otherwise. Everything has a reason, even this feeling.

I turn at the guard with a quiet stare that I am sure everyone can see the same anxiety I am feeling.

'Tell him I'm already leaving. Tell his grandmama I'll visit later to receive her gifts and that she should watch her health. Old ladies have it hard. I better go.' Seeing reactions was not on my list. Stalking the newcomers were not on my list. That bile in my throat that never left was not there. The days I'm not myself where emotions I never had come up and take over. Emotions that used to never exist. I pound the locker door close and rush out. Fresh air, no humans, no mysteries. Maybe that is what I need.

My run was interrupted when I bumped into the last person I want to see. My reflexes disappeared and I fell backward in a sitting position on the floor. Those piercing brown eyes.

Well then.

He stares down like he was trying to figure out a big puzzle. I want to tear apart that damn puzzle, shred it, burn it and spread the ashes before him, show him that what stood before him was nothing he could ever imagine.

And that was my cue to leave.

My feet glided against the tile and I was already moving past him with a grace I couldn't keep secret no matter if I tried. I turn my eyes and keep moving past them who had just arrived and ran. I ran past the door, past the present and moved towards what I call freedom. To only be stopped. A guard grabbed my shoulder sharply stopping me. He looks at me in the same disapproving gaze of the humans of the time.

Don't go outside.

It's not worthy of your gaze.

It's not worthy of yours sir.

I look deeply into his eyes. On how he looks down on others but look so high up at us like we were gods. On how he believes it's his responsibility to teach us how the world is below us.

It seemed I didn't go far because Emilio was already heading his way. He knew I wanted out but he didn't need to come.

No, I don't care anymore.

"Move Human." The voice sends chills. My voice usually did that to those around even those that can't hear me. His hand left my shoulder like it had been hypnotized. The fear and wonder in his eyes send him to his knees like an unknown order of above. Like I had used the deepest forbidden magic and took over the world's mind.

I turn my head away from those thoughts and hold a hand to my mouth like I'm holding in vomit from the deepest depths. My feet were already moving, only to stop again.

"Emerald. I said come to my office didn't I?" Why can't they just let me go?

I cursed him off with my hand and open the door to the sun.

"EMERALD! YOU KNOW OUR DEAL. IF YOU LEAVE THE CONSEQUENCES WILL BE GREATER."

I didn't answer to that.

"What deal?" 'Daren'.

"If she disobeys any of my rules, she will be immediately expelled."

"Expelled?" Emilio exclaimed from behind me.

"Yes. Isn't that right lady Emerald?" I hesitate again.

Then gripping my face with my hand like it will stop this horrible feeling, I moved back letting the door close behind me. No matter what I do my eyes wouldn't stay still. Emilio and Diego were reeling at any revaluation of me. The two newcomers both held different expressions altogether. The girl could care less, the boy was curious. No one could know. Master of disguise it seems.

I head towards the principal feeling the blackness of two minutes behind me. My eyes didn't move from the old man in front of me. I felt how I pierced his heart and wanted nothing more than to go back to those doors.

"Come." He muttered. I nod letting my hand lie next to me. Emilio and Diego wanted to say something, to ask of something that was happening, but I wish not to answer them. Or go.

"Emerald. You do know what will happen if you don't come. We had spoken about this." Termination. Secrets spilled like wine. It will intoxicate those hunting me, intoxicate those who never stop being so human.

I shake my head answering him. I didn't want to go. Truly in my heart, I just wanted to go. His hand moved to show his phone, what was on the screen, and his finger glided over it.

Don't cause Emerald. It's simple, Emerald.

But deep in my mind as I follow him as my two friends scrutinize what is on that phone, I thought.

How dare this human think he can control me more than I control myself.