⇝Love Is Blind, So Am I⇜ •ʏᴏᴏɴꜱᴇᴏᴋ• {English}

⇱Past⇲

Yoongi's POV

A week after Jimin's accident, Yoongi went to live in Hoseok's house and Jungkook was forced by Taehyung to live with him, because he couldn't get over the fact Jimin had got hit. He blamed himself, but so did Yoongi.

They blamed themselves because they didn't understand how Jimin was feeling at all, they minded their own business and left Jimin by himself, alone.

Yoongi wasn't over it either, instead, he cried almost every night, so Hoseok had to cuddle with him to make him sleep. But Yoongi started to get more nightmares, as if his mind was trying to make him remember about the tragedy. He didn't want to remember though, so everytime Hoseok asked him to tell about them, he stayed silent and avoided the subject, sometimes talking about something else.

The four of them always went to visit Jimin, to see if he would wake up. But nothing happened the first week, he didn't move neither a muscle.

That day, it was a cloudy Friday and nor Hoseok or Yoongi wanted to get up. They worked everyday, but that day they had to go to the Neurologist, like every month. Only, Jimin wasn't with him this time, he was with Hoseok.

It was the first time he walked through the hallways of the hospital with Hoseok holding his hand. It was silent, not like when he was with Jimin. The latter told him about his dance practices, or about those times where he met famous people and attended TV shows. He did that to make Yoongi feel less nervous and sometimes he made him laugh too.

But he had to admit that Hoseok's silence wasn't uncomfortable, it was the opposite. Holding his hand, while they were in the waiting room, made him feel protected.

"Min Yoongi, it's your turn." The doctor came out and called him. They stood up and walked inside.

"So, how is it going Yoongi? I've heard about Jimin...I'm sorry about him, but I'm sure he will wake up." Namjoon said, taking one of Yoongi's hands in his.

"Thank you, I hope so. And, actually, I've been sleep deprived lately and my nightmares just... They are even scarier and they seem always so real, as if I was there, into it." He explained and sighed, tightening his grip on Hoseok's hand, which he never let go off.

"Umh, I see. It's probably caused by Jimin's accident, it was a shock and with the trauma you already have, I think it's worsening. But these nightmares, which to you seem always more real... I think your subconscious it's trying to remember about what happened that night." He explained and Yoongi felt his own hand being smashed by Hoseok's. The older squeezed his hand and stroked the back of his hand soothingly, to call him.

"Now Yoongi, I will ask you to close your eyes and make an effort; you have to think about your nightmares and explain out loud every single detail; you may remember everything again. I know you can do it and if you do, we'll be able to help you even more with therapies." Namjoon held Yoongi's hand with both his own.

Yoongi took a long breathe and closed his eyes. He tried to resemble the place his nightmares where in and every details they had.

"I'm in the same place as my usual nightmare, into my wardrobe. My dad comes and opens the door, he tell me to stay inside and to not get out, whatever would happen. I obeyed and stayed there, until I heard screams coming from downstairs. I decided to exit my hiding place and silently walked downstairs.
When I arrived to the kitchen, I saw blood on the ground and my mother had a knife in her hand. I backed and met the wall; my mom turned around but I couldn't see her face. At that point, I fell into the black and that's the end of my usual nightmare." Yoongi took a long breathe; he was shaking and felt tears threaten to fall at any moment.