Jason the toymaker x reader more than friends

Chapter 7

1 week later

Jason's POV
I needed a new friend after my last one betrayed me, i caught him trying to escape so I had to kill him. But I've found a new playmate, and she is very interesting and I like her a lot.

(Y/n) is like no other, she has also been deserted by her family which is an even better reason for her to come with me. I feel some kind of bond with her that I've never had with anyone before. I'm trying to figure it out but I really hate this feeling, I asked laughing jack and candy pop about it and they both said it was love. How the hell could I ever feel love?!, I lost my feelings long ago and they are never to come back. But I just can't stop this feeling when I'm with her, my music box starts to let out quiet melodies and gradually gets louder as I get closer. I didn't have this problem with her when I met her, but as I got to know her my love for her grew and I wanted her by my side forever. Whenever I'm near her I want to pull her into a hug and tell her how much she means to me, but I'll seem weak if I show emotions no one knew I had. So all I can do is pretend these feelings don't exist, and maybe turn her into a beautiful wax doll.
No. I don't want that, urgghh why am I getting stressed over human feelings? I'm no longer human so I shouldn't have this problem, but for some reason I do. Its frustrating and confusing.
I want to protect her and I also want to kill her, I just don't know what to do. I could just ignore her and the feelings would go away, its settled. I'm ignoring her, as much as I want to speak to her and make her laugh.

"Hey Jason" (y/n) said as she walked into the workshop and yawned, her (e/c) eyes locked onto my honey colored eyes. I looked away and carried on working on my new doll, she slowly approached me. "Jason are you okay?, you've been acting strange the past few days." Her always calm voice sounded concerned and worried. I wanted to turn around and wrap my arms around her and say good morning, but I know I can't. "Please tell me what's wrong" she gently grabbed onto my arm, I turned and glared at her making my eyes glow green. She slowly backed away knowing I was angry at her, I wasn't though, I forced myself to be angry to scare her off.

"I'm gonna go t-to my room" she stuttered and her eyes began to shine telling me she was about to cry. And with that she walked back into our room and locked the door, 'well that turned out great, I'm such a prick' I stood there holding the doll I just made, it looked a lot like (y/n) but was nowhere near as pretty as (y/n) is. 'I need to fix this' I sighed and walked to our bedroom, I slowed down when quiet sobs could be heard.

Readers pov
"I knew I shouldn't have come here! I should've killed myself long ago, nothing ever gets better for me and now Jason hates me. I will never be happy, I will never be pretty I will always be the ugly lonely and weird girl with the disease that is slowly killing her. Jason wouldn't care if I died, this disease will win and I will die without seeing the dark sky full of stars. I should end it all now!!!!" I sobbed out as I ran to the knife I had hidden in the draws. I pulled the knife out and stuck it to my wrist, I put pressure on it and it dug down on my skin not braking it yet. But before I could do one cut, the door was kicked open and there stood Jason looking hurt and worried.