Jason the toymaker x reader more than friends

Chapter 13

Readers pov
It had been a week since my family's death, well I think it was a week anyway, time goes by quicker in 'jasons world' so I could be wrong.

'Why did I do it, how could I?!. I feel like a monster, i killed them, my only family. I'm just as bad as them, they inflicted pain on others and that is the lowest of the lowest. I'm just like them, I've turned into them.' The same thoughts circled my head for the past week,Pain. Doubt. Anger. Sadness. Hate. And so much damn Regret. It was to the point that I haven't eaten for a week and haven't had much water, I've grown skinnier so much that my ribs can be seen poking out. I have cheekbones and bad bags under my eyes, sleeping has been a problem I haven't had any and I was slowly dying of hunger. I hated myself and wanted to end it, I tried to kill myself but Jason always managed to stop me.

I feel bad though, through all of this Jason has been trying his hardest and I have been pushing him away. He has been trying to cheer me up knowing how unhappy I really was, he still tried over and over even when I ignored him and stopped talking completely. He's been making me my favourite foods trying to make me eat, but it always stayed where it was placed I'd take one look at it and then leave it to go cold and never eat it. For the past week I've been sitting on the windowsill looking out at the sky going from bright to dark. Jason is truly a kind person but I'm breaking him slowly, I'm hurting him like I hurt everyone I ever meet. He made me a doll that looked just like me, when he gave it to me he crouched down and grabbed my hands telling me how beautiful i am but I needed to eat and put weight on. The doll had (hair colour) (long/short) hair and sparkling (eye colour) eyes, pink rosy cheeks and a red dress. Jason thought it was cute and it truly looks like me, that's why I hate it. Every time I look into its eyes I see a monster, a girl that killed her family just for revenge. A girl that deserves to be hated and killed. He sometimes cuddled me and stroked my hair to show the affection I never had, but I still never spoke or ate.

Today I was curled up in the sheets of the bed, sinking Into the warmth of it. My eyes barely open as my pale body shook from how cold I had become, I didn't fit my clothes because how much weight I had lost so I wore baggy shirts. There was a knock at the door, I wiggled further down under the sheets and hid my face. Footsteps approached me as they got louder and stopped, a loud voice echoed through the room as a large foot was shoved into my side kicking me off the bed. "OI KIDDO GET YOUR LAZY ARSE OUTTA BED!" I groaned in pain and lifted my head up to see a pissed off laughing jack. "Are ya gonna lie there all day!, get. up. You have been doing nothing but hurting Jason, I'm sick of it. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and get up, or I'll kill you myself for ignoring my friend." My eyes widened in fear as jack stood on the other side of the bed his eyebrows furrowed together in anger and the strong feeling of anger radiating off him. I turned my head away "I SWEAR I'll RIP YOU APART YOU STUPID BITCH!" He yelled and stomped over to me but was soon restrained by Jason grabbing him from behind holding him still, he struggled in Jason grip and growled at me. I looked at the floor and used my weak arms to push myself up, "your right" my words came out raspy and croaky as that was the first time I spoke in a week. "(Y/n) ignore jack" Jason's words seemed to pass right through me. "I am a stupid bitch, I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm sick of myself and I should just kill myself" I was still staring at the floor as I spoke jacks words surprised me but I expected it "yea you should" he spat venomously at me with a glare. "BUT I WONT BECAUSE IM NOT LEAVING JASON, and if you dare think that I'm hurting him on purpose well your wrong. I love him and I will never be like this again because you have made me realise how much of a pussy I am. And that is no longer me!" I shouted and looked straight into jacks eyes seeing his smirk "that's good kiddo, so show Jason how much he means to you and don't do this ever again or I'll end you myself." I smiled and stood up as Jason let his arms fall loose and fall by his sides, jack patted my head and messed up my hair giving me a sweet smile "make him happy kiddo" he walked away leaving me and Jason in the room. The room seemed to be filled with negativity as Jason's face looked angry and hurt.

Authors note
Some ideas from this chapter are from my dear friend go check her out. me and her both would appreciate it show her some love, my little dolls.
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