Change in tides

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days had passed and me and sam had gotten pretty close I meet his parents and hung out with the gang a few times the plan was going smoothly, besides for Will. Zac has been pretty cool about it evens though I knew deep down he hated it but Will was struggling hard. We argued about it all the time to the point I yelled at him to leave. It was break me and him further apart, Bella was right I was going to lose him but at least he would be safe.

"Tonight is the night" I say to Bella as we start at my locker

"Your going to have sex with him!" Bella says

"What!" Will over hears

"No" I shake my head "very much not" I sigh "tonight is going to be the night he tells me the whole plan" I say

"How do you know?" Bella asks

"Because he said to my yesterday that 'tonight I let you in on my whole world' and so I am just guessing" I tell them

"Yay, if you need to have sex with him I wouldn't totally dismiss it he is hot" Bella says and I laugh but I hits a nerve with Will as I see his jaw tighten

"It's gonna work hopefully by the end of today we can take them down" I say looking at will but he just walks away

"What's up with him?" Bella questions

"I don't know" I say

He must of end up skipping school cause he doesn't show up for music

"What's up with him?" I ask Zac as we sit at the back of the room

"It's nothing" he mumbles

"Dude come on" I say

"I promised I wouldn't tell you" he looks at me

"Is he okay?" I ask as worry's rushes through me

"Physically yeah" he nods "emotionally I think he is at his ends"

"It's about the whole sam thing" I sigh

"What else would it be about" he says "since I meet him, he has carried more anger and pain then a thousand armies could ever bare. He has been betrayed, deceived and hurt more times then I can count. And the only time I have ever seen his eyes light up with hope was the day he first saw you and the only time he has ever properly been happy was when you guys dated, I know he stuffed it all up by leaving but he didn't know what else to do for the one person in the world that is the reason he is still here today and now your off putting your life a risk how do you think that makes him feel?" He says

I didn't know how to reply to that, I just sat in silence. How much pain he caused me was at the front of my Brain I guess I lost track of how happy he made me and how he use to get under my skin but in the good way, but all we do now is fight.

At lunch I grab out my phone and walk to the furthest corner away I can find and I call him

"Hey" I softly when he picks up

"What's up?" He says sternly

"Um" I mumble "we have a meeting after school to go over the plan since you left I was wondering if you where still Coming"

"I'm good" he says

"I promise you William" I say and take a breath "I will come back"

"I'll talk to you tomorrow" he says and hangs up on me

Tears form in my eyes as what I have been bottling up for weeks now starts to pour over. I was scared to let him back in my life that I didn't think he was the only one keeping me together.