My Life

09/09/18

So a quick little update on what happened yesterday. I went to the hospital again last night because I was still really weak. They gave me another IV and now I am feeling a little better.

Nancy and my brother, Shawn let's call him, both have the same thing that I have. Bad vomiting and therefore they both went to the hospital with my mom. They are probably going to get an iv and prescription meds.

My breakfast today is pretty damn simple. These oats for babies (they taste soo good don't even judge me), with some milk to soften them up and half a cut up banana to add some fruit and flavour. Yeah, oh! Some apple juice to drink because your kid needs more liquids.

You know what sucks? One month you think that you for sure are non binary or gender fluid, and the next you feel more of just a tom-boy. Like, brain make up your mind! Because some days I do feel like I am a girl. But some days I feel like I am not a girl but not a boy. I don't even know what is going on in my brain lately. It's all a big mess.

Do you ever just sit at your kitchen table, eat cake and think about your gender and sexuality? Cause like, same. So I am sure of one thing. And that is the fact that I am bisexual. But, my gender is something I am still struggling with. Lately there has been this voice in the back of my head saying, 'stop. You know your gender'. And basically I think I am just once again overthinking this entire thing again. I have a tenancy to overthinking things often. As you may or may not have noticed.

So I am basically watching Ice Age for like the 190472648th time... What's going on with you? I am genuinely in love with the movie. The poor kid just wanted to get his food in the beginning, you know?

Haha, funny story... I forgot to publish this yesterday... here you go, one day late.