All the letters I should have sent

second best

I understand now
when they say
love is terrifyingly beautiful.
It is unpredictable,
upbeat and at times
will leave you breathless.

I understand now
that lump in my throat when you said you're in love.
And that tinge of pain
at the back of my eyes
when you let go of my hand.

The moment you drowned yourself in her eyes,
I knew I had lost you.
When you throw your sunset smiles on her direction,
I knew I had lost you.
Tonight I heard that your name rhymes with hers.
And how you relentlessly reply on her messages half passed your bedtime
and u'r someone who have always love to sleep.
My love, I knew then I had lost you
for the third time today..

I believe it now when they say change is inevitable.
Maybe that's why "us" disappeared gradually.
Maybe that's why you chose her.
Maybe that's why love left.
Maybe love never came for us at all.

— c.a