i wish i wasn't so terrifyingly alone

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it's the summer before third grade

and we go to the swimming pool

it's bluer than the sky

and the water's deep and cool

and at the end it's ten feet deep.

there the tallest man couldn't even stand,

and he's 8 foot 3!

i would throw a penny to the bottom 

at the very deep end,

and then we'd race to see who'd grab it first,

and whoever did would win.

and we'd go down

down

down

and the light down here comes in streamers

like the northern lights but in blue and white

and the water down here's getting darker

not the ocean but still there's less light

and the pressure down here

oh the pressure, the pressure!

it's building its pushing my lungs oh they're burning

the water is shifting, constricting my body

it's beating and breaking and pushing and shaking

i'm trapped in the crowd of a liquid never taking

a break just to see how these bubbles are making

their way to the surface where i could be staying

but the penny the penny it's there in my eyes!

i see it my fingers they reach for the prize!

and i almost have it, the cold copper dime

i stretch out again and i've won it! i've! - 

..my sister reached out and she withdrew her hand

and now crowded with water i've lost my one cent. 


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