Crossing the Line

CHAPTER XXXVIII: It's All Coming Back

At Carol's house

Yaya: ma'am may tao po sa labas

Carol: this late? sino? Si Mika?

Yaya: ay hindi po. Fille daw po

Carol: oh. okay sige, sunod na ko sa baba.

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Nagising si Jessey at napansing wala si Mika sa tabi nya. Pagmulat nya ng mga mata nya nakita nyang palabas ng room. Mabilis namang nagbihis si Jessey at hinabol si Mika. Bago pa makapasok sa kotse si Mika ay nakababa na din si Jessey at inunahan itong pumasok sa kotse na nakapark sa labas ng gate.

Mika: what are you doing?

Jessey: ikaw ang dapat kong tinatanung nyan di ba? san ka pupunta?

Mika:

Jessey: Drive!

Mika: what? (pumasok din si Mika sa kotse pero di sya nagdrive)

Jessey: san ka pupunta? Bat ka aalis? So ganun lang yun? pag gising ko wala ka na, ganun ba gusto mo mangyari?

Mika:

Jessey: ano? di ka man lang ba magsasalita? Akala ko okay tayo? Okay na

Mika: (nagsalita ngunit di tumingin kay Jessey) it was a mistake.

Jessey: Mistake! Haha (umiling iling then may tumulong luha sa mga mata nya. Tumingin sa labas) Mistake. Make out then call it a mistake after. Haha WOW!

Mika: sorry okay

Jessey: sorry? Oh look, I'm okay now! (sarcastic)

Mika: bumalik ka na dun, uuwi na ko

Jessey: ano bang problema

Mika: Everything. It was such a bad idea...to be...together.

Jessey: w-what

Mika: after we...we

Jessey: fuck

Mika: I can't sleep and I'm starting to remember everything...The good times. All those plans we had. All this time, pag nakikita kita all I could remember is...how you broke my heart. Parang nabura yung good memories

Jessey: M-Mika...

Mika: Pero ngayon it's different na, naaalala ko na din kung gaano mo ko napasaya. Kung gaano tayo kasaya

Jessey: It...it was really good back then. W-what's wrong with that?

Mika: hindi mo ba nakikita? Those things...yun yung mga bagay na plinano natin noon! At college we'll live together, study hard, play around, just be happy together...everything. Kung...kung pinanindigan mo lang! (tumingin kay Jessey ng may hinanakit sa mga mata nito) Edi sana...

Jessey:

Mika:

Jessey: I was young, tayo...natakot lang ako....confused...at magulo...

Mika: yea, classic

Jessey: (sumeryoso) bat parang ako lang may kasalanan lahat? sabi mo aantayin mo ko

Mika:

Jessey: guess, you didn't mean it

Mika: I mean it...that time I meant it. I really wanted to stay and wait forever

Jessey: wanted? Bat di mo ginawa? From I would, to I wanted to. YEA CLASSIC.

Mika: hahaha (sarcastic laugh) maybe you should've given me a reason to stay not just constantly wanting me to leave. Pushing me away. Hurting me "intentionally". Making me feel like shit! God. I'm willing to wait forever I could wait forever! Kung sinabi mo at sinigurado mong babalik ka pero hindi, you can't make up your mind because...you're a goddamn coward Jess!