//Left Handed//1D Fic

18<Are You Ready For It?>

THIS CHAPTER IS FÙCKING UNHOLY AS FÚCK. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK, PLEASE DON'T BE ASHAMED OF ME.THIS CHAPTER IS FÙCKING UNHOLY AS FÚCK. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK, PLEASE DON'T BE ASHAMED OF ME.
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-I've never had séx before, so excuse me if i'm inaccurate. I only sorta get how to write it because of my friends and of course wattpad-

" Niall slow down. Let me get this straight, you want Saphire to have sèx with you? " Louis asks, seemingly like he thought it was the most confusing or ridiculous thing ever. I didn't know how to reply, and personally I wish I didn't have to.

" Well yeah. But unlike Harry, I want much more than that. I want a bond with her, Louis " Niall glances at me, but I quickly look away.

I had no response, its stupid to have even thought about me and Harry. Me and a criminal. If I told Niall I didn't want to for that reason, he'd throw the fact that I said I wouldn't have minded doing it with Harry at me.

Why did I say that?

I hope they wouldn't tell him.

"Ni, as you know, Harry is my bestfriend. I know him, and what he wants. He truly wants more with her but he's not emotionally capable to do that. Saphire, you know how you kinda dont want to because hes a criminal? Same thing, he doesn't want to get attached because you're merely a work disturbance we got stuck with. " Louis inhales the smoke of the blunt, blowing it out before sucking it back in.

I was speechless. Had I said the criminal thing before? Had they been offended by it? I made this my main focus. Even though the 'work disturbance' thing hurt me. I didn't disturb them, they disturbed me. My life.

Niall sighs exhaustingly, "Harry's just going to fùck her. If he's not capable of caring, then thats all he's capable of. Saphire knows that isnt all she wants ".

I didn't understand Nialls feelings for me, someone he's not known for over 2 days.I didn't understand how Niall could speak on what I wanted, because if he'd done that 2 days ago I'd be home.

" What if I dont want anything?! What if all I want is to go h- "I was stopped short, by Niall planting his lips on mine. I paused, unsure of what happened. It all happened so fast and this would be the second time.

His hand found its way to the back of my head and me closer, sucking softly on my bottom lip. He takes his other hand and rubs it up my arm before letting them land on my left shoulder. Involuntarily my body turns, and so does his.

I feel the end of the kiss growing near, hands still not having touched any part of him. But my lips have.

I remember the first time we'd did that, I was helping his reputation. Involuntarily for that part. I recall him being completely ready and me being all gross.

That wasn't the case this time.

"I was the first one to do that the other day correct? " Nialls voice is low and sèxy. I couldn't fight it, I couldn't not be honest at least with myself. Niall was adorable at times, and sexy in others. Either way, he was someone you never wanted to hurt.

"Wait you both have kissed before?!" Louis counters, sounding shocked that he hasn't witnessed it. Niall nods, and I decide to respond to him.

"Yes and Yes. " My eyes fell on a tree in the distance. I was being so honest, I didn't want anyone else to know we kissed but the people who were in the room.

I felt Niall place a hand on my thigh, " So let me be your first and last one. If you give me the opportunity, I'd like to be with you forever. Even after this whole on the run thing is over."