//Left Handed//1D Fic

20<Back to Where we Began>

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//this is a chapter in 3rd person //

After breakfast, Harry was done tormenting Saphire. He knew he hadn't done something so pitiful and desperate as touch himself in the corner the night before, but he loved how bothered it made her. He loved knowing that she felt something for him, even if just on a séxual level. Having power like that over a girl made Harry feel good about himself, although he was the master at acting unphased.

Still, he desperately wanted to know what she dreamt about. He shouldn't care since they were nothing more than strangers but it bothered him not knowing. He liked something about her that he's never liked in any other girl. He liked more than just her body.

He hadn't figured out what it was, but he was determined to. This is why Harry needed to keep being mean to anybody who'd get in the way of feelings he didn't even understand yet.

After breakfast, Niall had gone missing and Harry had been the only one to notice. Despite how hard he was on him, Harry loved Niall dearly. If anything would happen to him he'd lose his mind, so he went out looking for Niall until he found him.

" Niall, the fúck are you doing out here? I thought you were going to play a board game with us soon. " Harry came off strong, but tried to soften his tone. He knew that he needed to start being extra careful of Nialls feelings, but sometimes he just got carried away.

Niall tossed a stick he was drawing in the dirt with far into the field before turning to Harry with teary eyes. " Please Harry, don't steal this one from me. " Niall begged, seemingly falling into another episode. This made Harry fearful for his brother like friend so he was careful with his words.

" This one? I- " Harry began, but Niall didn't want to hear it.

"You always take girls from me.You may not even notice, but you do. Saphire's someone I truly care about, and I don't know how this has happened so quickly but I know that I like her." Niall's heart broke at the sound of his own voice. He didn't like how weak he sounded, and Harry didn't either.

" Niall. Fall back. I promise I won't take the next girl you get feelings for, but I need Saphire... " Harry argued, stuffing his hands in his pockets. He was careful to be vague, hoping that Niall would insinuate something other than Harry too had feelings for her.

Niall balled up his fist as a single tear fell, " No Harry. You aren't a fúcking dog, you don't need to hump any and everything. I don't want séx from her ".

I don't either, Harry thought. But he knew he did. Usually it was only sêx with girls, but he also wanted to get to know her.

" Thats great and all but Ni, I can't help it. " Harry sighs, ignoring the urge to shout at Niall for getting so bold with him.

" It isn't even fair! She's with us for life, Ni. I don't know what got you thinking its reasonable for you to have her to yourself. " Harry continues before Niall can cut him off again. Niall begins to walk away but Harry follows.

" You know Harry, you're right. So keep her, fúck her. But don't go breaking her mind down just because you can. Don't let her end up like me, Okay? It's all I ask" Niall says stopping finally. He knew that this was all that was left to do. Harry didn't listen to anybody but himself.

" Niall... brother. " Harry whispers looking into Nialls eyes. Harry's voice softened extremely on the word brother, but that was it. He wouldn't cry, even though he felt he was about to.

"Have I done that to you?" Harry reached one hand out to touch Nialls shoulder as Niall sloppily wiped his tears with his sleeve.

Harry wouldn't cry. He wouldn't.

Niall doesn't want to speak, so he just nods. At this Harry embraces niall and as he does, a single tear falls from his eye, which he quickly wipes.

Harry remembers a time where Niall wasn't so emotional. When Niall was fun, and carefree. When Niall didn't have terrible anxiety, or emotional break downs.

Harry had done this to him.

He never realized it, but it was the plain truth. Niall has become this way, and nobody has noticed.

No one.

Niall wraps his arms around Harry, completely forgiving of Harry's non verbal apology. It was something Niall always had to so mentally, since harry almost never apologized.

"Listen Niall, I want us to get better. I miss the 13 year old kid who used to come talk to the big boys about middle school drama before we even made our gang 2 years later. I miss when I'd have to intimidate your classmates & we'd laugh about it later that day. I miss you Niall. " Harry whispers as he pulled away from Niall, who's wet face now sported a smile.

Niall nods, "I miss you too. I miss the 16 year old that hung with Liam and was mean but warm at the same time. The one who I thought was so cool. " Niall agrees nodding his head, getting a genuine smile from Harry.

Harry wanted to be nicer to Niall. With all the memories they shared, Niall didn't deserve this.Niall deserved to be as happy as he was when I first let him start hanging out with us.

"I'll try my hardest to be nicer Ni. You don't deserve it, you deserve to smile. "Harry means it when he says this.

"And I'll try harder to not be soft and be more like you. " Niall promises, but Harry quickly responds.

"Niall you're sweet and innocent. Thats what makes you fit in with us so well. Please stay that way. " Harry says seriously, looking into Nialls eyes. Harry loved Nialls innocence, it brought something unique to their gang.

"Fine, but I'll still have to toss my feeling about Saphire. How stupid of me to let how I felt about some bítch I just met get between us!"

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