Bury my past

Never hurt before

I never thought this would happen but I thought that FP was falling  for someone else and as my thinking came true I found FB with a girl just the night before giving birth. I never thought after waiting for nine months I would be gifted with miscarried babies a girl and a boy I lost my babies. I couldn't believe I thought life was easy and positive. I should never have thought like that. Turns out FP was having an affair With a girl from the school when I was just four months pregnant. And just a night before going to the hospital he broke up with me. He took the ring and let me brokenhearted. I never thought this would happen to me. I guess I was wrong. I had to keep going with my life. I have to forget about my babies. I had to forget about everything I had with FP. We separated our trailers and resume going to school as if nothing had happened. I have to act like I never had twins sorry miscarried babies. He never looked at me in the school hallway just as if I was never a huge part of his life or maybe he was just a huge part of my life and I was nothing but a distraction. After I had miscarried babies Fp's  parents travel back to LA. And over the phone  FP's mom told me how FP spoke about the babies and I with her. And why she came over to Riverdale just to make sure I was OK. She was brokenhearted but she couldn't tell me because I was really in love. She didn't have the heart to break it to me she didn't have the heart to tell me that FP  really didn't care about me or the baby. She told me how he thought this was all a mistake. He told his father how he wished he was never engaged to me. This  shattered me But I had to be stronger than the world. I had to face it as if it never hurted me. I had to set an appointment with a therapist just to feel better. Weeks and weeks later I begin to forget about all the disasters but I could never forget about my babies. Life has been tough but I need to be tougher than it. I need to start living again I need to forget about him I need to find a replacement how much stronger let replacement and I vow to myself to never look back and to live life with the flow.And as he found someone else to fall in love with. I need to learn how to fall in love again just like I was never hurt by loved before.