Or Maybe Be

To Lose You

I'm terrified of losing you the way I lost everyone else.

There's too much history on our side, and way too many years of being friends, that I look at where we're going, see the similarities as to where other relationships went wrong, and fear that I'm going to lose you too—that I'm going to hate you the way I hate him, or even worse, have you say the same exact things that he said on his way out the door.

I fear the awkward silences, the petty side remarks and the snarky, sleazy comments that exist when things start to go wrong. I fear that one of us has to choose a lifestyle that the other doesn't love, and I fear the resentment that you may experience when I stand my ground on a topic you don't necessarily agree with.

Loving you comes with a fight and I fear that neither of us will want to fight it.

You're far too valuable to lose, and far too amazing to let go. I can only pray so hard that you and I would never end up the way he and I ended up. I don't ever want to lose like that again.