what if ↬ stray kids imagines

suicidal - han

WARNING: contains sensitive content and mentions of suicide and such. if you have issues or something about it, skip the chapter.

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you looked down and regretted when you felt the sudden airsickness and a bit dizziness after seeing almost the whole city down you.

the cars below along that busy road, there, there will you land.

it's a life and death decision and you chose death, you were certain to do it, it's your decision, that you'll end your life here.

closing your eyes, you heaved a deep sigh and opened your arms, now ready to jump and fall until someone pulled you.

"hey what are you doing?! are you jumping to death?!" he asked you got his eyebrows creased.

"isn't it obvious? why would you stop me when you already know what will i do? ugh such a bothersome!" you glared at him, hissing.

"because i'm planning to jump here too!" he exclaimed.

"what? so that's your nonsense reason? okay, so for all i know i was here first." you then rolled your eyes on him.

"i live in this building, how about you, you don't, right?" he said, one eyebrow raised.

"i-i don't, but someone i know does, so." you answered, eyebrow's raised as well.

"and what's your reason in ending your life here? you can just let yourself die in other ways, you can cut your wrist, drown yourself, get hit by a car intentionally, jump off a cliff, hang yourself and everything! just not jumping here with me, it isn't a good idea." he said, almost rapping.

you sighed before saying, "boi you can do all those if you want."

"tsk. can i know now what has gotten in your mind and you wanted to die?" he asked.

"my mother died last week, my father left me since i'm just the only child, i don't know why, he chose his girl than his own flesh and blood. and then i got fired at my part-time job, leaving me broke, i can't even pay for my bills, my rent. plus i gets bullied at school, every time. no one did ever listened to me though, my friends even left me because of unknown reason, i don't know, my life's that miserable so i wanted to die."

"oh, awful." the guy looked at you pityingly.

"how about you?" you asked, and waited for him to let out a drama.

"well, i'm a guy so shouldn't i keep it inside like what any other guys do?" he answered, looking away.

"aish, unfair. why is world so unfair? even in dying it has to be like this? i should be unconsciously bloody right now if you just didn't stopped me. unfair! i wanted to die!" you started crying out loud like a child that made him chuckle.

"same as here girl. just find another place or die another day, i'll go first." he told you and stepped on the railing of the rooftop where they were.

"ya! today's maybe not my day but please, just please let me die now!" you pulled him down and whined.

"my problem's worse so i have to die sooner as well!" he exclaimed and yanked your hands away from him.

"what i told you earlier wasn't really all of my problems and i has too many of it so let me, i deserve to die the soonest! you're the one who should die another day!" you told him, stomping your feet continually on the ground.

"no, you should! ugh, we couldn't die together here though because people might think that we're a partner that has a forbidden love therefore chose to die together then live with each other in the next life. and i don't want that to happen so, get off here will you?"

"you have a point, a very huge one but you're a man, and ladies are first so." you stepped on the railing once again and was about to jump again when he managed to held your wrist.

"today's not your day, let's just die in other days, that's better." he spoke up and dragged you out the rooftop.

"ya! this is my life! don't control me!" you yelled and tried getting off his grip when he turned to face you.

"your life's a waste so everyone can control it, now die later, okay? i'm han jisung by the way." he offered his hand but withdrew it afterwards after not getting a response.

"i'm y/n." you said bitterly and rolled your eyes in annoyance. "don't stop me in other days okay?"

"i won't, i'll die sooner anyways." he chuckled before leaving you.

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i think this one already has a sense. omg.

no, i give back what i said, this is really the one who doesn't make any sense out of those previous imagines.