Can't back down - a Ricky Wilson fan fiction

Chapter 15

Jessica's POV

I woke up and my breathing was all over the place. I never usually have bad dreams but this was terrible. Ricky woke up and sat up beside me, without saying a word he wrapped his arms around me.

"It's okay, everything's going to be fine." Ricky whispered as I sat there crying into his chest. "I love you Ricky." I whispered, after what he said today I felt guilty that I ever doubted him in the first place.

"I love you too and you know that. Try and get some sleep" Ricky said laying me down in his arms.

Ricky's POV

Jess is getting worse and worse by the day. To say that I'm worried is an understatement. I'm scared of losing her forever. When Jess went back to sleep I felt tears run down my face.

I couldn't lose her, not now, not ever. The thought scares me more than anything. I might have more people that care about me than Jess does but Jess is the only one that matters to me.

I know that if anything happens to her I would never forgive myself. Jess is mine and I need to protect her, that was the moment when I realised I had failed in that today, and it had almost cost Jess her life.

Anger rushed through me, I was angry at myself more than anything. I don't deserve Jess, I don't deserve life itself. I knew exactly what I had to do. I wanted to do it now while it was dark.

I had an idea to go out and do it while Jess was asleep because she would try and stop me and I needed to do this. That plan didn't go to well, as I got out the bed Jess woke up. "Where are you going?" She asked sleepily.

"Nowhere" I lied

"Where are you going?" She asked again, she's not going to let this drop. I stood there in silence while I tried to think off a lie that would cover where I was going at this time of night. Jess picked up on what I wanted to do.

"Ricky, don't."