Time Again

Chapter 5: Seeing through your eyes

Adelle

My mood reflected the dismal gray clouds that blanketed Ashland once again. And with the clouds the fine misting rain of Oregon began, bringing the cold air of Fall. The color changing of the leaves, signaling the end of Summer.

I sighed and stepped away from my window. It was Saturday and I was supposed to go dress shopping with Abby. But I felt just like the weather: cold and dark. My heart hurt and all I could think about was Wes and how we almost kissed. Again. I couldn't keep doing this to myself. But my attraction to Wes was getting out of hand. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Or wishing I was with him. But somehow I knew this emotion of emptiness and heartache I was constantly feeling was connected to Wes. This wasn't normal. I knew him for three weeks and it felt like my heart and happiness depended on him. I didn't like it.

I was just grabbing my purse when Abby burst into my room, letting herself in as usual.

"Ready to go shopping?" Abby was like a bright pink ball of energy. She instantly lit up a room with her contagious smile and vivacious aura.

I was so glad for her offer to go shopping. I needed something to get my mind off of Wes.

"Absolutely!" I said, giving her my best smile.

The whole ride to the mall Abby chatted none stop about which dress to get; long or short, strapless or straps. Since she didn't stop to breathe I didn't need to give much input. Simple "yeah's" and "mhm's" would do.

The rain was picking up from the same monotonous drizzle to an actual storm. The windshield wipers swished madly, swiping away raindrops that are immediately replaced. It was a fruitless effort.

I stared out the window as the rain poured down and watched as the clouds blanketed the mountains. I loved the rain. Unlike most people who lived in Oregon. I craved rain like a starving man craved food. I loved how the icy drops felt on my skin. I loved the low gray clouds. I even loved the air and how fresh it smelled.

Suddenly a piercing pain filled my chest. All of the air whooshed out of me and it felt like my chest was being constricted. Allowing no air to enter my body. And instead of seeing the Oregon rain my eyes blacked out until all I saw was a kaleidoscope of blue rushing before me. It felt as if my body was rushing through the air. But as suddenly as the vision of blue came, it was gone. A dull ache and being weirdly famished the only evidence of what had happened.

"-Adelle! Adelle can you hear me?!" Abby had pulled the car over and was now inches away from me.

"What's wrong?" I blinked my eyes and looked around, completely out of it.

"I don't know! You cried out and then like, passed out but your eyes were open and you were grabbing at your chest like you couldn't breathe! You scared the crap out of me!" Abby sat back down in the drivers seat.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what happened. I'm fine now." I gave her a reassuring smile.

"Sure you are Adelle. I want to go shopping so let's just forget this happened. But if you wig out again I'm taking you home! Or worse I'll take you to the emergency room!" She flipped on her blinker and pulled back into traffic.

"Okay I promise not to 'wig' out again." I put on a calm face but inside is was freaking out. What just happened and why did I just see my dream?

I tried to forget what had just happened as we pulled into the mall parking lot.

"Hey can we go eat first?" I interrupted Abby's rant on what kind of dress to get.

"Sure!" And she continued her rant. This time I tried to actually participate in the conversation.