Stuck With One Direction

Chapter 16 - New Scars

Haileys POV

I ran. I just ran and didn't stop. Out of that fuckers house and through the streets. It was pissing rain outside and I had very minimal clothing and no shoes. But I'm too depressed to care.

All I've wanted for the past three years of my life was Harry. I tried so hard to deny that to everyone. Including myself. I think not because I'm ashamed, because I'm not, but because I knew that I'd get hurt. That's why I felt sick to my stomach when I found out I had to be near him for 4 straight months! I knew I'd fall for him but never in my life would I have thought it would be this hard...

Everything is spinning. It's getting harder to breathe and I know it's not just from running or crying. It's because he takes my breath away. Whenever we kissed I was completely captivated by him. It's like he sparked the fuse on a massive storage of TNT's in my heart. Even his touch makes my stomach flip and sends shivers down my spine. Being in the same room as him, even if there were tons of people, it feels like we're the only two there. It's like the rest of the world becomes blurry and goes mute, except for him. I always see his face, wherever I look. I try to close my eyes but, he's there too. He's the only light in my darkness..

I'm consumed by him. Every part of him. He draws you in, his charm is too irresistible. Once you've gotten too close you're fucked. You've been dragged under and there's no one who can pull you back up. I can always feel his eyes burning into my soul and every time they do its like all the dark drains from my body. His glowing beauty brings out the light in me. Turns out we need the dark sometimes to fight against love that's not really meant to be there. He purposely broke all my walls making me a vulnerable mess, just so he could kill me. Without actually killing me.

I'd rather be dead right now. And I mean fully dead so that my broken heart stops beating and my endless flow of tears finally comes to, well, an end. I don't wanna breathe if I can't breathe his air. This is much worse than death. This is dying.

Pain stings on my arms and legs as the rain hits my skin. I look down to see blood streaming down my limbs onto the sidewalk. I used to self harm, yes. This was not intentional. I guess my body acted on reflex to drown itself in physical pain to distract from the emotional pain but all I feel is numb. I need to end this. I can't take it. I can't...

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Harry's POV

She left me... I can't let her go! She means everything to me. She's my whole world. I'm disappointed that she's a virgin! Im disappointed that she was so ready to give it up to me when she thought I still loathed her! Why can't she that I need her, that it's hard to breathe without her? It's suffocating me! I have to find her, I don't wanna live without her!

I run through the whole house looking for her but no one has seen her! Shes gone. Oh no. Fuck no! I bolt out the door not caring about my shoes as I go to search for the girl who quite possibly has an unbreakable grasp on my heart, Hailey Tomlinson.

"Harry!" I turn around to see Louis panting, with red puffy eyes. He knows Hailey left and he's worried too but the sniffles he makes don't compare to the sobs I'm breaking down in. "Wait! We're coming with you!"

"No time Louis! I have to find her! Now." I run off through the streets of Manchester searching for any place she could be hiding. I'm already soaking wet from the rain and I'm not a huge fan of thunder, but I don't care right now. I have to find her.

"HAILEY!!" I scream, my voice hoarse from all the crying. "Hailey please! Where are you!?"

"Harry, Harry wait!" Alyssa? "Harry, I think I might know where she is!"

"WHERE!?" I sob.

"Harry, Hailey used to cut herself!" WHAT!? Oh god... "She did it for years and even tried to kill herself! She only stopped a few months back and I knew if something like this happened it would set her over the edge!" Shes crying now too as she screams over the noise of the storm.

"Alyssa, where is she!?" I shout. Please no, please no, please no!

"I think she's at the bridge... I think she's gonna jump!" NO!

That's it! I start running, faster than I've ever ran in my entire life. Not only can I let the girl of my dreams die but I'll hate myself forever if its because of me! Fuck that, I already hate myself!!

"HAILEY!!" I'm almost there but I have to call for her! I have to stop her before its too late!

As I make it to the bridge I see someone in the distance. Oh my god!

"HAILEY, NO DONT JUMP!!!" I scream. She looks over at me quickly and looks down again. I slowly walk closer to her. "Hailey, please don't do this..." I croak. She takes a deep breath as if preparing herself.

"NO!!! HAILEY, I LOVE YOU!!!!" I scream through tears. My whole life flashes before my eyes. All I can see is red. I have no idea whats happening until I hear her voice.

"HARRY!!"

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Hailey POV

This is it. I'm gonna jump.

I look down once more at the shirt Harry gave me before I close my eyes and take a breath.

"HAILEY, NO DONT JUMP!!!" Harry!?

I look over to see him staring at me with pleading eyes. Fuck, why'd he have to show up!?

I have to do this now. "Hailey, please don't do this..." He croaks, I take a deep breath. I have to do this now. "NO!! HAILEY, I LOVE YOU!!!!" He screams. Wait what?...

I feel like I'm gonna pass out. My feet slip off the edge and I do the only thing I think could save me right now.

"HARRY!!" I scream before darkness consumes me.

I was dead.