Stuck With One Direction

Chapter 30 - Tears & Confessions

Louis' POV

It's been 3 days since Alyssa left. Everyone has been proper depressed and a rather gloomy aura fills the entire house. I still wanna kill both Harry and Niall. Harry for taking Haileys virginity and Niall for kissing her and being the cause of the mess we're in now, but I can't. They're my two best friends and as much as I'd love to beat them senseless, I have contained myself.

I'm shocked to admit that even I miss Alyssa. Whether it's because she made Niall happy or because her bubbly attitude brought a certain bashful vibe to us all I'm not sure, I just wish my new friend would come back. We've all tried contacting her but alas she hasn't replied. Hailey is a wreck but Niall is worse... Much worse. He rarely talks or sleeps, he's been spending most of his time with Liam and Hailey. I'm amazed Harry hasn't ripped his head off but more so has actually been there quite some for the poor lad. I think the things that scares us all the most, Niall won't eat... Yah, Niall!

To say he's hurt would be to say the least. He's ruined. A complete emotional wreck who's eyes have turned from their usual vibrant blue to a depressing gray. They used to twinkle with happiness and pride but now they're just dull. Like there's literally nothing there anymore. I guess he's just... Numb.

"Louis?" I weak voice whispers from behind me. I turn around to be met with a long mop of loose curls and sad brown eyes.

"What's up Hails?" I ask softly. She steps closer slowly before gently clinging to my waist and burying her face in my chest. I hug her back and rubbed her back soothingly.

"I was just thinking..," she mumbles. "About when we were kids. How easy life was and how happy we always were. Me and you, we were like twins." She chuckles slightly and it warms my heart. "We did everything and anything together and whenever someone needed a shoulder to cry on, we always had each other."

"We did." I smile, remembering how we were once inseperable. I miss it.

"Yeah." She smiles back, pulling away slightly but still not letting me go. Then she sighs sadly before continuing on. "But then when you left for the X-Factor I thought 'how could you' and 'why are you leaving me' and I couldn't help but think it was because you didn't need me anymore... You meant the world to me, Loubear. If I lost everyone in the world but still had you, I would have all I need." I pulled her back into me and kissed the top of her head repeatedly letting my tears fall as her own dampened my shirt.

"I'm sorry I left... I didn't wanna leave you either and that was my biggest and only regret." I admit sheepishly. "When I came back and you wouldn't talk to me... I knew why and I didn't blame you. I'd be hurt too... And for the longest time I wondered if it was all really worth it, ya know?"

"Louis I'm happy for you.." She croaked. "I really am I just... Missed you. You were my rock, no matter what I knew i'd always have you. Then you left and I felt like I didn't have anything... I pretended to hate you and it worked for a while but being stuck here in this house with you for the past two weeks made me realize something."

"What's that?" I ask, barely above a whisper as I look down into her tear filled eyes.

"I still need you..." She whimpers. My heart shatters as she sobs quietly against me. I let the tears fall as I squeeze her as tight as I can but the rest of me standing still in shock. Realization hits me and I let out a broken cry before saying 'I'm sorry' over and over again.

"Why are you sorry Lou?"

"Because I'm the reason you began to self harm..." My voice is barely audible but I know she hears me as her body tenses in my hold. Her sobs stop and she shakingly pulls away staring into my blue eyes.

"Louis i-"

"No Hailey. Don't tell me it's not true because it is. You do that to yourelf because of me! ME! You needed me more than anything and I wasn't there for you. I'm so sorry." I cry, burying my face in my hands. "I'm never gonna let you go again. I promise." Her tears begin to fall too as I step towards her pecking her forehead before pulling her once again into me.

"Thank you... I love you Loubear." She whispers.

"I love you too. I always will."

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Liam's POV

"Hey Ni." I smile softly as I walk into his room and plop on the bed next to him.

"Hi Li..." He sniffles.

"Niall, have you been crying again?" I ask sympathetically, rubbing his back.

"Maybe..."

"Mate, we miss your contagious smile. Everyone here is aching for you, bloody hell even Kallista has been crying! And she's heartless." I chuckle, light heartedly.

"She's crying for Alyssa." He mumbles, not meeting my gaze.

"Erm, actually Nialler, she's not."

"W-what are t-talking about?..." He stutters, finally looking up at me.

"She, along with rest of us, is dying inside watching you fall to pieces. But we're not gonna let that happen anymore."

"What are you getting at, Liam?" Niall asks with worry. A small smirk makes it's way to my lips as I look into his dull gray eyes.

"We have a plan. A plan to get you and Alyssa back together."

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A/N woohoo update!! So idk about you guys but writing that sad part between Hailey and Lou brought tears to my eyes! They're so cute, it's pretty close to the relationship I have with my cousin except he's super hyperactive and sometimes it's not safe! Lol anyways I hope this was good and I wanted to say OMFG HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD 'FIREPROOF'!?!?!? I FUCKING CRIED SO HARD OMG ITS BEAUTIFUL AND MY HEART IS HURTING!!!!!!! And I'm SO stoked about 'FOUR'!!!!!

Cannot contain excitement!!!! Ahaha anyways yah so that's all I have to say, hope you liked the chapter my Oreos! :* .xxxxxxx