The End Of Forever

Fake effort

My Mom stayed in her bubble of depression and I continued wishing she would make a real effort for me. She told me she was making an effort but I see she made an effort in the wrong direction. She doesn't give a damn about me or my happiness. She cares about avoiding my dad. well, seeing my dad, she talks shit about my dad all the time without even thinking twice. I hate that about her. She doesn't care about the other people she's hurting with her words, she wants to please her new boyfriend. Ha. He is her ex from when she was in high school and now she is back with the asshat. then that's going to end and she's going to kill herself. Wonderful. Just what I want to happen.

I can't believe she would just leave my dad and get two more boyfriends! She just took me out to dinner a buffalo wild wings, of course, I'm on a diet woman! She made me eat a snack-sized wing at least. Then she told me that Phil would be joining us for dinner. At first, I thought it was my dad, but then he walked in and my mom went over to show this random dude where we were sitting.

Ok, I hate this. He is terrible and now he knows where we live. What the hell woman. Don't you see what this is doing to your daughter's mental health? I need to talk to my therapist about this. Like, now. Before I do something I would regret.