The Ambrose Asylum

Chapter Eighteen

***AJ's POV***

Dean eventually got tired of hearing me or waiting on me, so I'm being carried now to who knows where but anywhere is better than their.

Dean's smart but he didn't figure this out due to luck or whatever, he was actually preoccupied until I talk to him.

(Flashback)

"Now hurry along before you miss dinner" he told me carressing my cheek.

I didn't need to be told twice and ran out of their not stopping until I was far away and then puked my guts out. I headed to the cafeteria sometime later but didn't bother eating knowing I just throw up again.

Paige looked at me with pity as did sasha and lexi, but I ignored them and my feeling of self hate. I need to tell someone anyone but I need them to do something about it.

I looked up to where the guys were and didn't see dean, I could really use him right now.

If I told him would he care?

A few days later it got worse and I was called into his office during my group I was gonna talk to dean but clearly he caught wind of something.

After edge left me with this monster he attacked me again but this time I bashed his head aganist his desk and ran and didn't stop until I was banging on a door, crying my eyes out.

The door opened and I collapsed on dean, not expecting it he fell with me on top. I didn't look at him, just buried my head in his chest.

He patted my head as we layed on the floor not talking.

"I hate him" I cried out into his chest.

"I fucking hate him" I screamed looking up at dean who seemed unbothered and wasn't listening. Maybe this was a mistake, we weren't even on speaking terms.

My emotions getting the better of me I said something that one day would be the key to controlling Dean.

"He hurt me" I quiety stated.

"What?" dean seemed to be fully aware and looked strange now.

"What did you just say" he asked roughly.

I started crying for many reasons again. He moved me off him and I laid their on the floor head buried in my arms blubbering like a two year old.

He fucked up my mind, great just great.

A door closed and I was lifed and brought to a bed, dean gently placed me on it and layed down before gathering me in his arms again and comforting me.

After a while I was settled and dean asked me what happened.

"The new doctor...." I stopped to gather myself.

"Its ok princess take your time" he told me kissing my head.

I took a deep breath and continued, "the new doctor hurt me" I told him teary eyed again.

Dean looked like he could burn the world right now. "What did he do" asking calmly trying to comfort me still.

"He gives us special treatment and does things to us when we misbehave or mess up" I told him vaguely.

"Baby how did he hurt you" he asked and I froze up.

"Please don't call me that. He calls me that when he touches me" I said sadly.

He maneuvered me off him and stood up. I grabbed his arm and pleaded with him to stay.

He complied and laid back down with me.

"He touched you" he repeated like he didn't understand.

"He hurt you" he also repeated.

"Dean its okay I'm with you now and I'm safe" I told him kissing his chest where his heart beat.

"You should've told me" he said holding me tighter.

"I'm sorry dean" I told him.

"Don't be sorry, you did nothing wrong" he said to me.

We laid in silence for hours enjoying each others company and warmth. I fell asleep eventually knowing I was safe with dean. I woke later that night, to dean staring at me.

"Why aren't you sleep" I asked sitting up on him.

"Can't" he simply stated.

We stared at each other his hand massaging my hips and rubbing up my stomach, stopping when I winced.

Sitting up he goes to pull up my shirt, "don't" I mumbled out moving his hands.

"Let me take care of you" he asked sweetly kissing my neck.

"You'll hate me" I said looking down.

"Impossible" he told me looking me in the eyes.

I let his hands go and he slowly lifed my shirt, exposing my scarred skin. On my right side below my belly button the word 'MY WHORE' carved into my skin was sure to be seen even after it healed.

I couldn't stand the sight of it and pulled my shirt back down as dean reached to touch it. He let his hand fall and got up after placing me on the bed to get a first aid kit out his closet.

He sat back on the bed and cleaned the area before wrapping it up and kissing me sofly on the lips, telling me he would take care of me.

He put everything back away and got back in bed before I crawled back on him and he chuckled at my behavior.

"I'd do anything for you AJ" he said looking at the ceiling with his eyes closed.

I didn't really pay any mind until I thought about how far anything went in his book.

"Anything" I asked hesitately.

"Kill him" I bluntly stated.

Dean's eyes shot open and he looked at me.

"What?" he asked shocked.

"If you kill him it'll make me feel better" I told him.

"Done" he said not long after.

"Really" I asked. "I would do anything to make you happy and kill anyone who hurt you" he told me.

"Was gonna do it even if you didn't ask, just surpised you asked" he said.

"He fucking deserves it" I said closing my eyes.

"I know princess, I'll do it tonight" he told me.

"It has to be tomorrow night at 11" I told him.

"Why?" he asked eying me.

"You'll see" I said drifting off, "and don't be late" I added.

I fell asleep to hearing the beating of his heart and waited to see the killer come out of Dean again.

(End of Flashback)

"How do you feel now" he asked me as I came back to the present.

He had treated my injuries by wrapping some and putting cream and such on others. I didn't feel anything probably because all these weeks of torture have made me numb to everything.

"Thanks" I said shyly. I was seated on his desk and he was standing between my legs staring intently at me. In all honesty it was turning me on, but that's the last thing that should be on my mind right now.

He smiled at me the kinda of smile you get when you know your about to do something exciting yet dangerous and I couldn't wait.

"Let's be selfish" he told me, breath fanning my face and all I could do was nod.

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A/N: Should I write out the smut or skip it all together? If your struggling in life it's ok keep struggling then MAYBE it gets better if not....oh well you tried