JohnLock OneShots

Say Something

Description: This is a songfic. Set after Reichenbach Fall episode. John is at Sherlock's Grave with a gun. He says his speech. And......read on! I advise watching the video attached to set the mood. The lyrics will be in bold itallic btw!

John's P.O.V

Say Something, I'm giving up on you~

"You had to go and do it didn't you Sherlock?! You had to jump! You had to leave me in this world alone and afraid! Please just please don't be dead. I am slowly giving up."

I'll be the one, if you want me to~

"I thought we had something! I thought...I thought you loved me! I thought we were going to be together! Just us against the whole God damn world!"

Anywhere, I would have followed you~

"I was going to solve cases all over London with you! I was going to follow you anywhere without care because as long as I am with you, I am happy."

Say Something, I'm giving up on you~

"But all of that is gone. All gone because you left me Sherlock, you left me!"

And I~

"You could've spoken to me!"

Am feeling so small~

"How do you think I feel knowing that my bestfriend couldn't speak to me about his problems?!"

It was over my head~

"I could have tried to help a little. Just a little."

I know nothing at all~

"Why didn't you tell me?! Why didn't you trust me with your problems?! Did I really mean so little to you?!"

And I~

"What am I saying, I meant absolutly nothing to you! You never cared for me so why do I care for you?!"

Will stumble and fall~

"When I saw your body that day after you jumped, I felt my whole world shatter." 

I'm still learning to love~

"No, my world did not shatter. It fell. It fell from the roof when you did because the truth is Sherlock you were my world. Infact you still are."

Just starting to crawl~

"I never thought I would ever love a man. But you, you are the only exception. You are the only person I have ever truly loved but I made the mistake of never telling you. You died thinking that you were a freak and you were unloved when in actual fact, you were a genius and you were loved so much."

Say something, I'm giving up on you~

"I never told you that I loved you! You never knew how much I needed you!"

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you~

"I couldn't reach you! Why didn't you let me go get you?!" 

Anywhere, I would have followed you~

"I should have talked you out of it! I should have been there to comfort you! To help you!"

Say something, I'm giving up on you~

"Why didn't you let me help you?! Why did you take the coward's way out? Why didn't you come to me for support?!"