She shut herself off before anyone could shut her off
She pushed away people she loved before they could push her away
She took everyone's pain so that it didn't hurt more when they hurt her
She wanted people to see and understand what was going in her head-
But she didn't give any indication as to how she felt
Instead it was as if she wished others to be telepathic and read her mind
She doesn't know how it all started
Or when
Guess she was just tired of people she cared about leaving her life
She was tired of putting her trust on someone only for them to break it into a million pieces
She's had it happen one too many times that saving her heart came as a default
But she had it wrong
She was right that it hurts when people leaves you
But it hurts equally as bad when you leave them
The constant feeling of loneliness doesn't leave you
Instead, they gnaw at your heart until you scream
She didn't know her self-worth and certainly didn't think she deserved to be happy
She thought letting herself get too attached was the worst thing that could happen to her
She was so used to being alone in her head that she didn't see a way for her to let anyone in
Her low belief in herself made it seem to her that no one deserved her as a friend
They all deserved better
She was destined to be alone in this world even if it killed her
She was poison-
Not only to herself but to others around her
raima <3
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Poetrya plethora of miscellaneous ideas that popped into my head and refused to stay inside. from random proses to poetry to book reviews: this book has it all for your reading pleasure :)
