Carrie
I fiddled with my fingers sighing heavily , I was waiting for my mother . I just had lab tests done , the doctors should be here any minute now .
I sighed heavily sitting up weakly , I bit my lip nervously looking over at my laptop .
Im sure he responded to me by now . It's been months . He decided to wait years to reach out to me . He decided to spend the day after our break up with other women.
Cheating
He loved it. He loved women, he loved being intimate
with them .I never gotten any clarification on why he did what he did . I didn't need it , I realized it on my own . Harry was a selfish man . I was simply used by him , among other girls . Other girls who made sure they messaged me to let me know they had sex .
I missed my happy memories with him , I was only in love with the memories.
I opened the laptop and of course seeing a notification. I clicked on it and read it , his words didn't have no affect on me . The time has passed . I'm not desperate. I'm not desperate to have him in my life anymore.
I sighed debating if I should give him the luxury to respond. I didn't .
Like I said the time had passed and I wasn't going back .
I closed the laptop placing it back on my side table .
I looked over at the sound of the door opening , my mother and the doctors trailed behind.
My mother's eyes were red , her petite frame looked so tiny next to the doctors . She looked stressed . I pursed my lips bracing myself for the news .
The first doctor smiled faintly,"Carrie.. I want you to know after multiple imaging . We could only notice that your cancer is certainly spreading . Unfortunately it spread to one vital organ . Your liver and it's nothing we can't treat ."
I sucked in a sharp breath trying to stay strong .
The second doctor started talking ," Your treatments would be 12 weeks of the Stanford V protocol, a combination of the drugs mechlorethamine, doxorubicin, vinblastine, vincristine, bleomycin, etoposide, and prednisone, followed by radiation."
I cringed harshly at the sound of all the things he listed . Those harsh medicines didn't seem to good going into my body .
The first doctor looked me over intently, "I know it's a lot to taken in .. or you could possibly do six or more cycles of ABVD, a chemotherapy regimen that includes the drugs doxorubicin, bleomycin, vinblastine, and dacarbazine."
The room went quietly pursing my lips. "How long would I have to live if I don't receive any treatment." I asked shakily
That question had been on my mind for a while. Even though I'm not suicidal making that an option will be.Both of the doctors looked at each other as if they were speaking telepathically.
"6 months to a year, you would be in pain . Your organs will be shutting down " The second doctor said quietly.
I nodded slowly ,"Okay. "
My mother had a pained expression on her face as she shook her head . "That's not an option Carrie." She breathed out .
I sighed weakly ,"I know." I didn't look over at my mother , I could only imagine is she felt when I asked that .
The second doctor nodded ,"We are starting your treatments tomorrow. I know you may feel overwhelmed. It will get better " He advises calmly before he left the room . The other doctor following behind .
My mother went to me rubbing my .
arm before giving me a tight hug . I closed my eyes tightly hugging her tightly .****
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When Harry Met Carrie
RomansaHow do you know when it's over?" I asked weakly , staring into her brown eyes . She hesitates looking away from me , "Maybe when you feel more in love with your memories than with the person standing in front of you."