Numb Pt.2 | Xxxtentacion [Completed]

"oh my god."

*January 20th*

"Ski, the quartz finally came in." Roxava said to Ski while we were all vibing in the theater room.

"What quartz?" I asked.

"The ones I used to cast that spell on you." She answered.

"Ohhh yeah, I remember those." I said.

"Ski, let's go cast the spell." Roxava said.

*The Next Day*

I woke up. Jacqui wasn't there.

"It was only a one day thing...?" I questioned out loud.

Then she walked out of my closet.

"Babyy, thank god you're still here." I said as I walked up to her and held her tight in my arms.

Jarad walked in my room and said, "uhh... bro what the fuck are you doing?"

I stopped hugging her and looked at Jarad.

"I'm just... cold." I said so he wouldn't ask any questions or flip on me like Ski did.

"You sure it's just that?" Jarad laughed.

"Yeahh, ain't nothing special going on here. I'm just cold." I laughed along.

"Ain't nothing special going on here? Wow. I see how you fucking feel." Jacqui said.

I turned my head towards her and she wasn't there anymore.

*Jacqui's POV*

Jarad left the room and Jah closed the door.

"Jacqui, come back." He said as he walked towards the area I'm standing.

If I were to talk right now he wouldn't hear me, or see me or even be able to touch me. I turned invisible to him again.

"Baby, please." He sighed as he walked through me.

"No." I said even though I know he can't hear me.

He sat on his bed and started crying.

"Baby, I didn't mean it like that... I just said that so he wouldn't flip out like Ski did." He let out.

I sat next to him, hugged him, and as I kissed his cheek I made myself visible to him and said, "it's okay baby."

"How'd you do thatt, don't play with me like that please." He said as he wiped away his tears.

"It's just a thing spirits can do." I let out.

He looked at me. I can see inside his eyes, how hurt he is.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

"For what baby?" He emotionally asked.

"I didn't want this to hurt you. I thought I was doing you a favor. I thought you stopped loving me and wanted nothing to do with me, I didn't mean to hurt you the way it's hurting you. I thought you'd feel some type of peace. Baby I'm so sorry, I wish I was still there for you and Gekyume. I love him so much, I wasn't thinking about him. I was being selfish. I'm a horrible horrible mother." I cried.

"Baby, it's my fault. I'm sorry. And please don't say that about yourself, you're not a bad mother...you just didn't know what to do. I made you feel that pain. I'm sorry. Gekyume will be okay baby, I promise." He said as he held me.

"But I wanted to be there to help you raise our baby, and now my dumb self did something I fucking regret. If I could go back... trust me. I would." I said as I wiped away my tears.

*An Hour Later*

"Alright baby, let's go downstairs.. I think you have someone else to see again" Jah said as he got up and walked towards the door.

"Huh?" I questioned as I followed him.

"Do you not remember?" He questioned back.

"No, I stayed by your side.. that's how I knew I was gonna see you the next morning when you got your spell. Who else got the spell? Gekyume?" I asked while smiling. "Wait no I wasn't by your side that day, I was with Gekyume... so who got the spell?"

"Let's go downstairs and see." He said as he walked down stairs.

"It doesn't last forever, I'll have to keep redoing the spell but after a while it'll stop working.. so you don't wanna rush all your spells, ya know?" I heard that one Roxava girl say.

Ski looked up to Jah, obviously cause he can see him. I wish he could see me. I miss him. I hurt him. I wanna apologize to him, let him know this ain't his fault.

"oh my god." I could hear Ski say under his breath. "Jacqui?" He questioned.

"Stokeley...?" I questioned back as clarification, to see if he could actually see and hear me.

He got up so quick, ran to me and picked me up.

"What?! It's like you're really here." He cried.

"I am, but just.... spiritually." I cried along.

"I'm so sorry I hur-.." Ski started to say until I cut him off.

"Don't be sorry.. I'm the one that did the damaging here. I hurt you, Jah, and I know this will hurt Gekyume once he understands what happened." I cried.

"Gekyume?" Ski said with his eyebrow going up as if he was mad confused.

Oops... did I say that out loud.

"Ohhhh yeah, we were gonna tell you when he turned one." Jahseh added.

"WHAT?!" Ski yelled while jumping up and down.

"Stokeley... you're an uncle. We have a lil baby boy named Gekyume, he's been with Cleo because we wanted to surprise you. Once he turned one. Jahseh and I have been gone so much before I did this because we'd always be with Gekyume. But I did something selfish...I wasn't thinking about the outcome, I was thinking about all the negative and nothing positive came to mind. This will hurt my baby..and I fucking regret what I did. I would've been a good mommy." I cried.

"You would've been a great mommy." Ski cried along.

"You would've been the best mommy." Jahseh cried along too, but hella hard.

I know I hurt them. This isn't what I wanted. I wanted them to feel like they were free. Without a worry in the world. But now look, I made them feel the way I was feeling. Jahseh left me because he thought he was doing something wrong and he wasn't, and now I left them because I thought I was hurting them... but I was wrong. Until now. My suicide hurt them way more than anything.

"Y'all need to cast this spell on my lil baby Gekyume." Jahseh said.

"Yeah, he needs to be able to grow up with his mommy." Ski added.

"He can't... he's not old enough. Once he hits 15 you can." Roxava sadly said. "I'm sorry."

I cried harder, because I was hoping I could hold my baby again, but I put this on myself... I should've never killed myself. It's my fucking fault. Fuck.