I love you

2

After taking a quick shower while crying, I was so angry I wanted to hit myself. I hurried and dragged myself to  the infirmary where I can find Jin 형.
I knocked twice and and hear his voice said come in. I slide open the door and threw myself on the bed.

Whoa! Jimin?! Are you hurt again? He sighed. Jimin, please, let me help you get rid of them! It's been 3 years already and, I-I just can't let this happen to you every single day!! JIMIN!! He shouted with sorrow.

형...please...you already know why I won't let you hurt jungkook, eve if it kills me I won't let anybody break jungkook's fragile heart. My heart is jungkook's heart. I also feel sad when he's also sad. B-because I-i l-l-lov-

THAT'S NOT LOVE, JIMIN!! You idiot!! He cut me off by shouting angrily.

I got scared and broke down. My mouth opened, Tears came  from my eyes, I feared shouting, touched and people getting too close. I lost my body and on its own it went on my knees and I holed tightly on Jin 형 leg. I-I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, i-i sorry, I-I'm so s-sorry!! I cried, fear were surrounding me.

Jin 형 went down and hugged me. No jimin,I'm sorry that's I shouted, but please stop loving jungkook. I know it's hard to stop love and I might sound like he bad guy at this moment but please, I can't keep seeing you looking like this. W-what am I going to do if you die?! He said with a sad expression. He looked like he was about to cry. I always felt bad about this. If only I can stop loving jungkook, Jin 형 wouldn't need to deal with me every single day.

형... I'm sorry, I'm sure you don't want to deal with me either. I said

No! That's not it! I'm worried because I love you! I think of you as my younger brother! And that's why I don't t want you to get hurt!! Of course I also love the others including jungkook, but I can't let them do things to you!That's why I'm here to help you! I'm doing This because I want to!!! So, pleas.. don't ever say sometimes like that again, okay?

Okay, thanks 형. I smiled and Wiped my tears off.

Huhhh? What about a "I love you" he whined.

Ha ha! Fine~ I love you! I laughed. I always loved it when he'd make everything funny when it gets awkward.

Okay! Now that's your okay let's get you treated! He stood up and went to the self to get the bandage.

Alright. I said.

After school

I walked home with Jin 형 like always but sometimes the "BTS" would sometimes give an insult and run away. And that happened today.

Ewwwww! Jin 형! What are you doing with that ugly garbage?! J-hope 형 smirked as he came towards us with his skateboard.

Stop saying that, J-hope!! Or else I'll kick your ass!! Jin covered me.

Ha ha! What? Wanna be a hero now? Well stop it! Come with us, if you stay with that ugly slut, your just become one with him! Come be a cooler person and join us 형!

Hope형, just let it go. He'll join us when he wants, he can't leave us anyways, right? Jin 형~
He smirked.

Whatever, just go already! Jin 형 shouted.

Alright, fine! Oh by the way Fat gay 형, remember that's your nothing worth it so stop being around the cool kids, including jin형, so get out of his life. He said with a cold voice while glaring like a eagle at me.

Jungkook that was not approp-

I grabbed Jin 형  jacket and pulled it to signal him to not say anything bad to jungkook. Jungkook always adored Jin 형 and I don't want jungkook to even have a slightest scratch in his hearts. I love him more than anything in the world, I would love to die for him. Giving my life is nothing but giving his life is like my life. I'll die with him if that's the case.

Hey hey hey! Fatty! Don't touch Jin 형 with your filthy hand! It's disgusting! He said angrily.

I quickly put my hands into my pocket.

Oh! And Jin 형! We're having a party at RM 형
House! Wanna come? He said with a cheerful voice with a smile that made me almost faint. Jin 형 likes namjoon 형 so he can't really reject but he always try to reject for my sake but This time I want him to go.

J-jin형? Um.. please go, you know I don't like it when you don't.. uh ...g-go. It's more sad when you don't go so please don't t make him sad...for my sake is what you said, so pleas go for my sake. I said with my head down.

So? V asked excitedly.

Fine, I'll go. He said with a. Worried face.

YEAH! They all smiled and laughed. If only that smile could be for me... no.. that's just selfish. It's all for jungkook's sake, so I can't be like this.
G-great! I smiled.

Suddenly the aura got dark and cold. Uh... I-

Who told you to smile? Jungkook said with a cold voice that I lost balance and fell.

I-I

SHUT UP!!
YOU NEVER GIVE ME THAT DIRTY SMILE EVER!! GOT IT?!

I nodded, with tears almost about to fall but I held it in as much as I can.
Let's go 형! Jungkook said happily. If only.. I bit my lips to not think about my own selfish reason. I stood up and ran as fast as my beaten up legs to go. I went into the broken city and went inside the walls between the grocery and the candy shops. There were garbage between there but it was a good place cause i could see the lights and cars when I go up the hill from there and a big tree there was my house. A hill and in the middle was a huge tree I climbed up and went sat on one of the strong branch.I live here cause I don't have a house where I could live like a normal person, plus i didn't tell Jin 형 that's I didn't have a house, I don't want to trouble him more then I already did.
I was always starving due to the no food thing but it didn't matter, I'm gonna die soon in a few months. I have a very bad condition of some sort. Whatever. I sighed.

I thought about jungkook and his cute handsome perfect smile. But that smile will never be for me. I'm always day dreaming about his smile would be for me and not his girlfriend. W-what am I saying?! I can't do This. This is just selfish! Forget it! I'm going to bed! I told myself.

Jin pov

I was worried when I and told to the party. Is Jimin really okay with this? I know that jimin always wanted to go to a party with jungkook since we were-

Jin 형 what are thinking about? Don't tell me it's about that fatty. He said with a hint of a anger voice.

I-I'm just worried, he never tell me anything about his life, not about where he lives, what he eats, what he do. I don't even know what his phone number is! I stared to panic.

Calm down 형.who even cares about that guy anyways? Jungkook pulled one eyebrow up closing his eyes while tilting his head to the side.
Just stop about worrying about that loser. He's a bitch anyways. Let go drink! He said.

He went over to the kitchen and drank another cup and got drunk soon. This was my chance to go. I quickly went out of Namjoon's house and headed home.

When I came home my parents were all out again. They're always busy and don't have much time for family dinner or anything. But I'm completely okay with it cause I know they love me but it's just that they're busy. It does get lonely sometimes and I try to invite jimin over but he never does. I wonder why he's always so busy? I brushed my teeth and jumped on my bed. If only he'll tell me... what kind of friend am I? As I keep wondering, I fell asleep.

Hello! Ok so it's a bit boring but I promise it'll get better!
See you in the next chapter!
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