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"Soph Common!" Ash yells as he runs up the hill because of his excited mood complaining all the time about how I need to speed up. One thing I like about him when he is like this is that he is all in carefree mood and all adorable but it's also annoying because of all the energy he gets and he wants to run everywhere (I'm not really an energy freak).
Earlier today when we were laid down in my bed just doing nothing but talking and enjoying etch others company Ash said that he had an important thing to show me and mumbled something after that I didn't hear but I think he was just saying something for himself . Now 10 o'clock were on our way to the important thing he had to show me, the second he stepped out of the house his features turned from quite to excitedly and loud mood.
I follow him up the hill in a speed that probably a sloth could walk past. "I'm coming Ash slowdown"
"Come here" Ash says and pats at the spot in the grass next to where he lie with his longhair spread out on the ground, his hazel eyes holding various emotions as they stare up at the beautiful star filled sky. I lay down at the place he patted at and turn my head so I'm looking at the side of his face with his strong jawline and the small dimples that come out. He turn his head and look straight in to my eyes when he realizes me looking at him.
"Admiring me or something?" he asks with a raised eyebrow and little smirk on his pink lips, my lips form a little smirk as I reply and take one of his curls in my hand and play around with it. "Can't blame me can you, you little gorgeous shit" Ash chuckles at my reply and press my back to the grass making me look up at the stars. Ash lay down as he did before and point up at the sky and says: "Do you see the star right above us that shines a little bit more than the other ones" I look up where he point with his finger, the star stand out it's a little bit bigger than the other stars and shines the brightest. I nod my head before answering: "yes".
"I want you to think of me when you see that star if you ever feel alone or sad or anything just think of it as another part of me" He says in a strong voice and takes my hand in his, I let go of his hand and cuddle up to him before taking his hand again. Ash kisses me on my head and I stare up at the star.
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I lay down on the slightly wet grass, my body is shivering from the cold air but I don't care. My eyes is full of tears but I don't let them out, I can't let them out I don't want anything to be the opposite of Ash's personality. His bubbly happy personality. I force a smile on my face as I stare up at the star having the most light in the entire sky and a part of me just want to lock away the star and never be reminded of him again but then a part of me knows that if the star wouldn't be there I wouldn't be here either because I can't I just can't be in a world where Ashton Irwin isn't.
My hand that once was held by another one is now holding tightly on to a paper from my only Ash. The paper was set on a tree in -Ash's- front yard I found it the second I got to -his- yard after the phone call from his adopt mom.
On the paper wasn't an explanation he knew I already knew why.
Don't be sad. This part of me wasn't made to be here long but look up to the sky and you see me again I'm going to be by your side in the darkness remember.
Love always Ash xx
You know what to say.
I can't keep my tears in anymore. Ash is here in my sadness and darkness just not in the version I need most.
"Love forever Soph xx"
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{ { Random question: Calums or Ashtons arms ~^o^ ~
~ hard one but I have always had a thing for Calums arms so Calums ~*o*~
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I changed the chapter bc I thought my first version was short (but this wasnt that much longer either soo..) and not so detailed writhed.
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FanfictionLove always Ash xx You know what to say "Love forever Soph xx" - a story going on about a boy whos background is slowly killing him bit for bit with help from himself. - *warning* This story contains suicide, panic attacks and depression. -