𝙄𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙋𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙨 | Why Dont We [✔️]

Hope || J.A

credit to noodles-send-n00ds
warning: angsty, suicidal thoughts

You grew up in a place with no love. your mother wasn't around and your dad stayed in his office all the time. your older siblings moved out and got amazing jobs and did great things when you were stuck at home with no one.

you worried that you would be the outcast of the family. you wanted to do great things like your brother, justin, who became a surgeon and saved lives but the sight of blood unsettled you. you wanted to get an amazing job like your sister, lisa, who is a lawyer but the sound of years of school was not pleasing to you.

you could only hope that you were good enough and hope you wouldn't be the outcast. it seemed like whatever you did wasn't good enough like it was a step backwards. when your dad left the office, he reminded you of how much of a failure you were.

with less than a year left of school and no idea on how to be successful like your siblings, you fell into a state of depression. soon the hope of being like them was crushed and you were left with nothing.

you wanted to end your life. you didn't want to see the look of disappoint on your dad's face as you failed to be like them.

tears ran down your face as you looked at the pills in front of you. you didn't want it to end but you didn't want to be the failure you are. you knew you had jack but you were failing him. you are failing.

"babe, i brought cookies. can you let me in?" jack said from the other side of the door.

you didn't say anything but he must've heard your sobs.

"what's wrong? please, let me in," he tried to open the locked door. you grabbed the pills and stood up.

you were about to open the door until jack said, "baby, please. i love you."

there was that feeling that disappeared a long time ago. hope. it was back and that's when you put down the pills and ran to unlock the door. when you saw jack, you jumped into his arms. soon tears fell out of your eyes and onto jack's shoulder.

"shh, it's okay," he rubbed your back to calm the sobs and soon they came to a stop.

"thank you," i told him.

"for what?"

"for bringing it back," you pulled away from the hug. he looked at you confused. "hope."

he looked into the bathroom and saw the open bottles of pills and his smile faded. his eyes welled up with tears.

"d-did you take any?" you could practically hear his heart breaking.

"no, you saved me."

he hugged you again, tighter than before. he grabbed your hand and a bag of cookies and dragged you to his car.

"we are going to sky high and on the way there you are going to eat these cookies," he started the car and drove to sky high.

the rest of the day jack showed you how much he cared. it made you smile. he showed you that you weren't a failure and you didn't need to be like your siblings to be accepted. he loved you and that meant the world to you.

i was finally happy and it was thanks to your amazing boyfriend.