limerence.

𝙇𝙄𝙑𝙀 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙇𝙀𝙏 𝙂𝙊.

At this point, it doesn't seem like I'll ever understand love. Why do two people fall in love with each other? Everyone else seems to know the right words to say. The right things to do. They always fall in love with the right person. And I don't. I can never seem to find someone that fits me, that gets me. That understands what goes on inside my head. I can never find someone who listens, and is willing to try anything just to make my heart feel complete. I have never had the special connection that most people have already had with someone of their choice, and even if it didn't last, it still happened, didn't it? Imagine not knowing what that's like. Imagine having hope for something that only ever disappoints. Imagine losing that hope entirely. Because this love they speak of... has never come true for me.

I want to believe in love again. I want to believe that there are words out there that can make my heart smile. I want to believe that there is loyalty, and that life isn't just another card game. I want to believe that honeymoons really can happen, and that driving off into the sunset together isn't just another cliché. I want to believe that there are moments where words aren't needed and just silence is enough. I want to believe in those dozens of roses and chocolate boxes of affection. I want to believe in a happily ever after, and that sometimes fairytales really can come to life and dreams and wishes can come true. I want to believe in all of these things; I want to believe that they're real. I want to believe that someday, they can somehow happen to me.