ME, HER AND THE PURGE

Chapter 29

Ian's Pov

I'm eating lunch now while my legs are shaking I couldn't get the chance to get into the diary deeper because of nan's yelling at me for lunch, I don't want to eat lunch, I want this diary right now...i need to know everything the sentence i read is literally stuck on my mind...'I'm going to purge'

I stood up " Sorry Nan but I'm full" I said taking my plate to the dishwasher

"What? You didn't touch your plate Ian" She frowned

"I'll eat it later but I just need to study Nan if you need anything I'm in my room" I said acting completely normal then, when I disappeared from her sight, I ran panicking to my room, Closed the door, Snatched the diary off the desk and threw myself on the bed.

I inhaled a deep breath feeling the silky purple notebook that had Moon's name on the top left side then I opened it looking at the first page

»»————-Hello————-««

Dear,Diary

    In my whole entire life, I never thought i would make a diary, I've always thought that it's a silly thing to do.
Why talk to a paper ? While you can talk to people!!
But sadly I was wrong people are evil...
I don't know how this diary thing works but I'm gonna pretend that you miss diary are a person..my imaginary person
So I'm Moon and I'm a mess or shall I be accurate and say I'm being destroyed!!
Don't be curious cause I'm gonna tell you everything happened to me that made me come here, sit and talk to a piece of paper...
I'm losing my mind ugh!

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It's just the first page and I'm already tightening my fist then I looked at the second one and it has a label that says

»»————-　The begging 　————-««

       Dear Diary,

I know talking about something happened in the past won't change a thing but I wanted to write all the things I remember of how it all started so I can see how stupid I was

The first day of school...I'm that kinda of person who loves to make friends and communicate with everyone, In Canada, I used to do the same thing I was friendly with everyone, I'm not saying that I was popular but I was friendly and the people there were kind.
The first one I met in the school was Emily the one who I believed was my best friend, She introduced me to Ian which I think is the best thing she did to me.
I should have stopped there and don't try to fit in
But Jessica opened a way for me..Or shall I say Damien?? Because he's the one who told Jessica to come and talk to me
As pathetic as it sounds. I thought they wanted to be friends but no honey no they were searching for a weakness point, And Do I have the right to ask WHY??
What did I do?
And what hurts me the most that I didn't listen to Ian when he told me I shan't go.

I said earlier that I'm writing this to see how stupid I was, but that isn't the only reason the main reason I'm writing what happened is for someone who deserves to what know happened.

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I huffed predicting that "someone" is me but maybe I'm wrong, I started looking through the next pages