My Head

Almost

I almost didn't tell you...

I almost let you keep thinking we were on the same page.

It has hurt me so much thinking about how I was going to tell you today.

I've cried probably 3 times a day the last week thinking about how to tell you.

I almost just ignored how I feel right now.

I almost pinned the crying on everything that's been going on with my mom right now.

I can't ignore this overwhelming fear that I have that I just ruined everything.

I knew there was no way to tell you that wasn't going to hurt you.

I wanted to bring up last time you were over but I couldn't.

I almost did.. I almost told you. But I didn't and that's my fault.

I could tell you were upset right after and I've felt horrible since and just want to cry more.

I'm sorry I hurt you, I didn't want to hurt you in this process but there was no sugar coating it.

I almost told you that you could go home if you wanted but I didn't because I'm selfish and wanted to hangout.