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Chapter 13 : Going Back

Haya's POV

It has been 3 months since she died. That day is still on my mind. How I saw the world getting blur in front of my eyes. How I felt my throat clogged. How much I prayed all that to be a dream but it was a harsh reality that was here and we have to face it.

Last day I was with her but I never imagined that would be last soup I would be making for her. It would be the last time I would feed her with my hand.

But look at this damn life it still carries on even though the most precious thing is not with you anymore. And nothing is there that you can do change it.

I am happy Noor is here for me. Even though she is very little but she still gets disturbed seeing my tears. I am so happy I didn't give up on her. Even though Hamza Bhai tried that I give up her for adoption to an infertile couple. I am glad that I never did.

I went to Bhai's room.

"Bhabhi can you go to market with me tomorrow." she smiled and agreed.

"Thank you" I hugged her and moved back to my room.

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We were both in market along with Noor. I had to buy few things for Noor and myself. Thank god I still have my card with me.

After shopping I went to pay while Ayza Bhabhi was still shopping.

I gave my card to the shopkeeper.

"Ma'am your card is expired"

"What!!!! ...." I said shockingly and started examining my card and it was really expired a month ago.

"Uff what I am gonna do now" I debated internally.

"What happened Haya?" Ayza Bhabhi said who was standing by my side now.

"Hmmm ...... my card ... expired" I said embarrassingly.

"It's okay I can pay for you." she said politely and gave her card to the shopkeeper.

"Thank you" I said with a smile.

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I lay down on my bed with many thoughts running in my mind.

"How I am gonna manage without my card. I still need so many things for Noor........ I cannot ask for money too ..... I cannot be dependent on them ....... It's not about one month's or two ...... I think I need to go home but ...... Noor" I glanced at her who was sleeping peacefully.

Today or some other day or after some more years they are gonna know about her no matter how hard I try to hide her.

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Next day I prayed my Isha prayer (late night prayer). I was about to sleep when I saw the water jug empty. I went towards the kitchen to fill my water jug, when I heard .....

"Ayza we cannot leave her alone" Hamza Bhai said

"But it is also important for us. We still have five days to prepare for it." Ayza Bhabhi said.

"If I ask her to leave for home she will think I am doing this because of Noor. Yes, I don't like her idea of her adoption but I never disliked Noor"

"I will stay with her you can go"

"No I cannot go without you. We will together or we will stay here together with her"

"Hamza you go I will stay with her"